July 2008
Sunday, July 27, 2008
I've taken a step forward. Over the past few days I've removed almost half the "friends" I had on Facebook. The first one to go was Valerie, which was hard, but needed. I mean, when someone doesn't call you back for MONTHS, they obviously don't want anything to do with you, right? Now, like the other friends I've parted ways with, I'll just have to remember the good times and wish her all the best. If she ever decides she wants to be my friend again, she's got my number.
After that, I was inspired. It's called your friends list on there, but who was I trying to kid? Most of the people I had on there weren't interested in being my friend. They just accepted the friend request because they accept most everyone's or whatever. And, it could be considered silly, but I just hope I didn't offend anyone that I removed. Most of them will never notice because they've got hundreds of "friends" on there and it's not like Facebook alerts them to the fact that I've deleted them. But, if anyone does, I hope they don't think I don't like them or anything. That's not the case. I was just tired of pretending to myself that they might care about me the tiniest bit. For instance, I left a wall post for everyone when I saw it was their birthday. Just a couple sentences that were pretty generic, but it feels good just to get a "Happy Birthday" from someone. So, I pretty much knew I'd only get a few messages when it came to my birthday--from people who really are my friends that I communicate with outside of that site--but I had hoped that maybe some people I'd wished a happy birthday to would think of me. Not really. Now, I wasn't wishing them all happy birthdays just so they'd wish me one, but it would have been nice. But yeah, bottom line, I've decided to stop deluding myself, at least where this is concerned. More areas will likely come in time.
Tuesday evening I went into a funk. I'm not sure if it started just before group, and group worsened it, or if it started at group. It was the topic though. It got me thinking and I sank down into a bad place. And then I just wanted to wallow, so I did. The next day was a little better, and Thursday more so, but I didn't really want to let it go. EARLY Friday morning, I was still awake and my mom got up because she wasn't feeling very well. So, I sat with her in the family room for a while to keep her company. We just started talking and then it was like 3:30 in the morning. lol It was a good talk, but I felt bad for keeping my mom up longer. Anyway, she couldn't understand a lot of what I said. Stuff like I just wanted to feel crappy because I deserved it, etc. I've been beating myself up for a long time, and she can't understand where it's coming from. I don't know either. She's never belittled me or ANYTHING like that. Yeah, when I went through a stage where I decided I wanted to become a famous singer (it's okay, you can laugh, I'm laughing too) she wasn't very supportive of the idea because of the kind of lifestyle most of those people have. But I mean, she's an amazing mom. So where on earth did I pick up stuff to make me so incredibly negative toward myself? I'm honestly not sure. We can attempt to psychoanalyze me and throw out growing up without a father or mean kids in school, but I don't know. If it's one of those two, I'd lean toward the latter. Kids are cruel. I don't really think that growing up not knowing my dad would cause all of this, but maybe it could. I've never felt that it was that bad with the exception of a few memories I have, but I suppose I could be repressing stuff. But, how could so little contact with a person mess me up so largely? Or is that just it? Blah, I'm not making sense anymore.
My poor daddy. (FYI, this would be my step-father, not the one I was talking about in the paragraph above.) He did something to his back about a week and a half ago, and he's not doing well. At first, he thought it was getting better, but the last few days it's been worse. He's not even sure what he did to it; says all he was doing were normal activities. Prayers would be appreciated. :)
Oh, and by the way, I'm out of the funk now. (Forgot to say that.) Not instantly fixed or anything, but working towards it. Trying not to put so much pressure on myself, but I do have some things I sort of need to think about/figure out about what I'm doing. Unfortunately, there are realities that must be taken into consideration. *sigh* So I have to figure out how to think about them, but not think about them so much that it will stress me out or send me into another funk. Ha, wish me luck!
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
So yesterday I went to see Hancock and I met Breanne. The movie was alright, and not as gross as my step-brother led me to believe, which I found strange. lol There were some good funny parts and it was just kind of interesting to see the superhero thing played out in a different way. Some stuff I didn't like, but it wasn't too bad.
After the movie, Breanne and I walked over to a cafe and talked... a lot. lol I think both of us had only intended to chat for a little while, but we were there for like, at least three hours. A few times we said we should go, but then just kept talking. Haha. Girls for ya, eh? ;) It was fun. And now that's two people from online that I've met this year. And, hopefully, I'll see Sam later this summer before she goes back to England for school. :D
Saturday, July 19, 2008
On Thursday I went down to the theatre and built The Dark Knight. First snafu happened right off the bat. One of the other worker bees broke down an older movie that was still sitting on the platter the day before... and he didn't take off the leader tape. And we only had two before then, so were down to one, which was being used on the film we were still playing. I talked to the boss and we decided that I'd just have to tape together a bunch of film scraps to make our own leader tape (we use the leader when threading the movie). Praise God that I looked on a reel from some old movie that was in the projection room and there was a bit of old leader attached to it. So I used that, some totally black film and a few small scraps from the extras of old trailers. It's a lot shorter than our normal leader, but it worked. lol Thankfully, the rest of the build went fine.
I was back at the theatre around eleven to help out for the midnight show and then stay to watch the movie. I thought it was good, but I couldn't really say anything more than that. So, good thing I arranged for a show for the young adult group last night so I could watch it again. And behold, snafu.
I got there before the previous show ended so that I could get the movie re-threaded as soon as the credits were over. However, I was downstairs and one of the employees comes down and says that the movie is broken and the other employee needs me upstairs right away. Why? lol It wasn't actually that bad, but it would have been nicer if it hadn't happened and it only happened because someone did something they should not have done. Don't know who it was, but instead of putting a stopper up against the end of the film on the platter, they taped it down causing the film to get jammed up in the projector and the lamp to burn a hole through a frame--it's a really powerful lamp. Who and why they taped it down, I've no idea, but now I've finally got a section of film with a burnt out frame like I've always wanted. lol I mean, I fixed it, it's my souvenir now! lol At least it was at the very end of the last reel so the sections I had to pull out were all blank frames anyway.
I had to run around a little crazy getting everything ready since the time I had allotted for that was taken up cutting and taping. That means people were there before I'd finished threading the film and that I burned half the batch of popcorn I was making. Oops. At least most of it was still edible. ;) Heh. And even though I was "working" for the first 45 minutes, I liked the movie a lot more the second time. I don't know, maybe I was in a mood the first time or something. There are some really good things in it, but I don't want to say anymore since many people probably haven't seen it yet. Now I just need to watch Batman Begins one of these days soon, and then go watch The Dark Knight right afterward. ;)
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
My big exciting thing for this post is what I did yesterday evening before group met for bible study: mom and I attended the Wheel Mobile event in Tacoma in an attempt to audition for the show. I say attempt because it's completely random whether or not you get the chance to audition. Anyway, here's the story.
Mom and I arrived just after four, with the first "show" starting at five. It was my first time in a casino and only like the third time I've ever been asked to show my ID for age reasons. lol When we walked in, it smelt smoky, but I assumed it was blowing in from the door. However, as we made our way back to the showroom (which was a REALLY long walk, that place is huge!) I saw a lady with a lit cigarette. Washington passed a law a few years ago for all buildings to be smoke free. So I turn to mom and remark as we're walking along, "isn't that illegal?" And right as I say that, it hits me: tribal casino. Since it's on tribal land they can and do allow smoking inside. Egh. Big time yuck. The showroom wasn't as bad because I don't think anyone was actually smoking in there, but I got a pretty good headache last evening and I'm guessing it was from all the smoke. Hopefully none clung to my clothes. I didn't notice it at least.
How the event works is that you get a little application to fill out while you're in line. They pass out a few party favors as you're waiting (a 30-day trial of the Wheel PC game on CD and a keychain thing from one of their sponsors), and then you drop your application in a box before you find a seat. There were probably around 400+ people there easily, and that was just for the first of three shows that evening. They draw five applications at a time once the show starts and those people get to go up on stage for a little interview and to play a fast version of a round and that's your audition. They pull out as many sets of five as they can in one hour, but it still wasn't a whole lot of people... 30-40 I'd say. Sadly, neither mom or I were picked, though mom did tell me she wasn't hoping she wouldn't get picked, but that I would. lol
I considered staying for the other shows, but thought it'd be best to go back and catch the group (though I was like a half an hour late). Then, I thought I'd go back today as they were doing another three shows. However, after thinking about it for a while, I decided that the long drive and long period of sitting in a smoky casino just wasn't worth it. ;) Haha. There's still a small chance that they might randomly select my application to go to the second round of auditions in a month or two, so that's something. :D It was a fun little thing to do though and a good story for me to tell people.
Kenny (my step-bro) came over this evening. He and dad talked for a while and then we finally went to get dinner. lol Okay, it wasn't that long, but I was ready and bored and wanted food. ;) When we got home I started a chainmaille bracelet for Kenny and actually managed to finish it before he left. I made a Euro 6-in-1 out of the largest rings I have so it'd be more "manly." Hahaha.
Monday, July 14, 2008
Yesterday Emily and I went and saw Journey to the Center of the Earth. We really wanted to see it in 3D, but I couldn't figure out where, if anywhere, around here that was actually playing it in 3D. :( Anyway, minus that it would have been cooler in 3D, it was still really good. :) There were some good funny parts and it makes me think I really should try and read some Jules Verne novels very soon. You'd think I already would have being that that's the sort of stuff I like to read, but for some reason I just haven't yet. Perhaps my aversion to "classics" and award-winning stories. Why this aversion? Because in school they made me read a lot of those and I despised the vast majority.
We went out to eat afterward and I was reminded of what I had wanted to post about on Friday! Figured it'd eventually come back around, so I jotted it down so I wouldn't forget this time. ;) Anyway, Friday I was having dinner with my mom at this place where they cook everyone's food on a big grill. The guy doing it was sidetracked and getting a little too erratic with the meals and I was afraid that the shrimp I saw in the food next to mine would contaminate my food. It did! EEEEWWWWW!!!! I sat down with my food and looked through it and there was a little shrimp nested in my noodles. I got it out and I really would have preferred to have an entirely new meal as I am completely disgusted by seafood, but apparently I have progressed because I ate the food after I got the shrimp out and I did not die. So gross though and if I happens again I will say something because they need to be more careful about not mixing different people's food.
And now, super big news for the end of my post. My cousin Michael called me yesterday to say that he's engaged! First one of his siblings to do so. I'm happy for him and I met her back in the fall when we were down in California and she seemed very nice. I actually liked her way better than any of the other girls he's dated in the past that I'd met, so I hope everything works out well. :) Don't know the wedding date yet. He said they were thinking maybe March. It'd be good to wait a while. I'm not for the short engagements; longer ones would be better. But anyway, I had figured that news was coming at some point when he told me on AIM a few months back that she was "the one." ;)
Friday, July 11, 2008
I have this nagging sense that there was something really good or funny that I wanted to write in this post, but at the moment I cannot recall it. Perhaps it will hit me after I type out the other stuff.
Tonight was the season five opener of Stargate Atlantis. Being that the end of the last episode in the previous season was a building exploding with prominent characters still inside, it's nice to finally not have to wonder at their fate. lol Mom and I watched that episode on DVD (came the other day) before tonight's episode to catch up, which was good. I liked tonight's episode, but I'm a little wary at how the rest of the season will go. There are more character changes again and it'll either end up being cool or kill the whole show. Hoping for the former and not the latter, obviously.
This afternoon mom and I finally went to see Kit Kittredge: An American Girl. We were pretty sure it was going to be good, and it was. :) Nice clean movie with a happy ending. Fabulous. I totally didn't guess who the culprits were going to end up being though. There are a lot of big name people in that movie, it's crazy. Even Colin from Whose Line is it Anyway. I couldn't figure out why he looked familiar at first and then mom was whispering something about how it was that guy from that show and then I figured it out. lol We're good like that. She can say something totally not even close to what she's meaning and I can figure out what she means. It's awesome and it baffles daddy. Hehehe.
Well, can't remember that fabulous thing I was going to post. *shrugs* Perhaps it was not that fabulous after all. Now I think I shall go finish off a chainmaille bracelet since I got some clasps for it today. Wee! :)
Wednesday, July 9, 2008
Mom and I started watching P.S. I Love You this evening. It didn't start out very interesting and quickly exhibited things that I consider inappropriate, though I figured that last part would be so. [Insert general frowning/grr here on how movies and TV keep sticking in needless inappropriate crap.] But we pressed on thinking it would get better. But it was just weird and a bit morbid, as my mom put it. After a bit mom went to sleep and I decided to give it a further chance. After all, at some point it was supposedly going to take place in Ireland, so at least that part would be worth it, right? Sure, pretty scenery in the background, but then a dude's butt on the screen. @!*# People, I do not need nor want to see five million people's asses in movies! I hit stop at that point and shall not be watching the rest of the movie. There was nothing to make me want to find out how it ended. My poor eyes/brain.
Sunday, July 6, 2008
Fourth of July night was quieter than I expected. Quite nice of them really, as it was less added soundtrack to the movies I watched. ;) I decided to watch a couple that I hadn't played for a while and so watched Night of the Twisters and Two Came Back. Both were good and I just discovered that the latter is now on DVD, so I think I may get that one of these days. I'll have to check and see if the other one's on DVD, too. Anyway, I also watched some of the first Harry Potter movie as it was playing on TV--they had a whole Harry Potter weekend. Because, I mean, what better way to celebrate the anniversary of America's independence from Britain by watching a movie based on a book by a British author, shot in Britain, and starring British people? ;) lmao I just think it's funny when looked upon that way.
On Saturday I journeyed into the world beyond for a few hours. Emily's house sitting for a friend so she invited me along to check on the cats there, etc. Then we came back to my house and had yummy cheese pizza (of the frozen variety) and watched Jumper, oh, and some of the second HP movie that was on TV that day. ;)
Today was pretty chill as well. Church in the morning, then a run to the store to get kitty treats 'cause we were all out and my kitties needed treats. lol While I was there I decided to rent movies. I didn't end up going to see 10,000 BC in theaters, so that was the first movie I looked for... but I didn't see it. As I was looking through the other titles, the lady came over and put one copy of 10,000 BC out on the shelf and I snatched it up! I watched it while having lunch today and found it to be quite good. Different than I thought it would be, and that turned out to be a point in favor for the movie. I'll probably watch it a few more times before it's due back. I also rented 27 Dresses, which is cute and I watched this evening, and P.S. I Love You, which I haven't watched yet.
Thursday, July 3, 2008
We had a pretty radical thunderstorm last night. Our typical ones are minimal and many times I never even see the flashes from the lightning, but oh, you can hear the thunder rolling through the mountains. As far as the latter is concerned, we've had much louder thunder, but to the former... I saw LOTS of flashes last night. Sadly, there are so many trees around that usually flashes are all you get. However, I did spot one bolt last night when I was watching out the window for a bit. It was cool! You know, as long as no one gets struck by it and it doesn't cause wildfires, bring on the lightning! ;) I even attempted to take some footage of it with my digital camera (haven't looked at it on the comp yet, but it's probably not that good, lol), and I also attempted some sound recording using my voice recorder, which probably also didn't turn out that good. lol Had to try though. ;)
I've still got some tail-end symptoms of the cold, but for the most part I feel much better, and now the weather is cooling down a bit so that's helping me sleep better. Though, I was up until one-something this morning from the thunder. Now if only the snot factory inside me would shut down for the season.
Tuesday night I hosted the young adult group here since our leader's out of town. At least I didn't have to be in charge of the group though--someone else came to do that--all I had to do was clean up the house some. Much easier. ;) I think it was a harder than normal topic to talk about, but we managed some chatting, and as always, it was a good group of people. :)
