April 2003
Wednesday, April 30, 2003
Hello, I'm sick. It started around 11pm on Monday with a light sore throat which progressed as the night went on. I thought that it would go away after a while and some cough drops, but it didn't. I ended up staying up until like 7 AM 'cause I started The Bourne Identity at five. Then I decided I'd sleep for a few hours in the hopes that my throat would feel better when I got up. It didn't. It felt just as bad. I took some dozing time later in the afternoon and then more symptoms came. In addition to my unhappy throat, I got a stuffy nose, a preasure headache, and oh, my favorite, the chills. Joy.
I watched this show on crop circles last night and that was cool, but I still felt like crap. I went to bed and decided not to take medicine and go for natural sleep. After waking up every hour until 4:20 AM, I finally decided I should take a shot of the night time medicine crap. That is the only good form of alcohol. lol I felt better when I woke up after that and all was well for a few hours and then I started to feel like crap again. It's one of those feel good in the morning, feel crappy at night sicknesses. So all I've been doing today and most of yesterday(had to go to a work meeting yesterday night) is sit in front of the TV. I shouldn't be online right now because it's not helping me at all and now I'm over-heating(stupid chills crap). Oy. But, I felt obligated to let you all know why I won't be replying to e-mails or working on sites for a while. Hopefully I'll feel better asap, but I don't know. So, ta ta, it's back to the TV for me. Oh, and I'm sorry this is all gloom and doom-y. ;)
Tuesday, April 29, 2003
Okay, I'm adding people to my fanlistings that I run right now, and I always go to check the sites and I just went to this one and not only did I see two of the graphics that I made and had up on my backstreet graphics site YEARS ago(I feel special, lol), but I also found the below which gave me quite the giggle. ;) lol
12 STEP PROGRAM FOR HUSBANDS OF BSB FANS
1. Put down the Black and Blue CD and back away slowly. No matter how much you want to, you are NOT smashing the Black and Blue CD. She loves Backstreet whether you do or not.
2. Always dress with lights off. That way you won't see her posters of Backstreet on the wall, and you won't get angry.
3. When a Backstreet song comes on the radio, repeat "I have no taste. I should be enjoying this. My wife has great taste in music. I sure wish I did."
4. When Backstreet announces they are coming to town, offer to stand in sleet and rain to wait to buy tickets. This will make your wife love you even more, and ensure a long happy marriage.
5. When looking for something. NEVER look in the chest in the closet. That is full of Backstreet souvenirs and will only upset you.
6. When you listen to other music with wife, tell her, "I wish this singer could sing as well as any of the Backstreet Boys."
7. When you listen to other music with wife, tell her, "Backstreet could do this song better."
8. When your wife looks sad, ask her if she read something disturbing on the Backstreet message board, 9 out of 10 times that is the reason for her malaise.
9. For Halloween, tell her you want to dress up as her favorite Backstreet Boy.
10. Write a letter every day to the Backstreet Boys thanking them for being the best, and making your wife so happy.
11. When presented with the cost of Backstreet tickets, thank her for the opportunity to make her happy at any cost!
12. Three Words: Backstreet Silk Boxer-shorts!
Just thought I'd share that with you all. Maybe it gave you a bit of a giggle as well. lol Oh, and for your information, the two graphics that are on her page that I made... they both suck so I'm not saying which ones they are! lol Okay, so they don't suck so bad, it's just that they're not the best of quality. lol And one of them says cool things(it's not the one about NSYNC, that I'll give you, lmao), but it's still sad compared to my current abilities even though I'm still not that great. lol And one last thing, thanks so much to everyone who's commented on the layout and thanks Sam for commenting on my poem. :D I think I might try to pull an all-nighter. I mean, it's already 4 AM anyway and I'm not in the least tired so why not? lol Plus then maybe I'll actually get to sleep at a decent time uh... later tonight. lol
Sunday, April 27, 2003
I think I was born a critic. I'm watching that America's Most Talented Kid show thing and yeah... I have too many things to say. lol I don't know how some of them ever made it on the show in the first place. I don't know, maybe I'm being harsh, but some of those kids are REALLY talented and the others just can't cut it on the same show as them. I'm sorry, but it's true. Then, of course, the judges give the kids pitty scores because they think they're such cute little kids. Arg. And Lance is out in the audience tonight and they have little clips of him talking to people in the audience and he like asked these girls if they were enjoying the show and I'm all like, "Pish, they're just there to see Lance!" lol I'll just shut up now. lol :D Me and my big mouth and opinions. Good thing it's never got me into any trouble yet. ;)
Other than that, this morning was church and I've decided that my favorite worship song is "God Of Wonders." Probably because it refers to space. ;) Egh... okay, I'll try not to comment on that performance just now. lmao Then I went to work and did... nothing. lol We were WAY over-staffed and all the consession spots got stolen from me so I stood around and just did a few things when they were asked of me. Got to see Tammy though. She showed up to see the movie with Michael so I talked to her for a quick sec. :) Egh, I need to figure out something to do. *thinks for a while... draws a blank* Well, I guess it's another game of Solitaire followed by Free Cell. lol
My Dear Robin
By me
My name is not Marion,
Nor does it start with an M.
I'm just a girl, no medieval Maiden.
Yet your arrow flies true-
Just as the legends say.
It hits my heart from far away.
Over the distance,
Though others may try,
My heart will be yours till the day that I die.
I pray that one day
You'll follow your arrow,
And sing to me like some sweet sparrow.
Saturday, April 26, 2003
I slept really long once again today. It's a regular pattern now save for if there's something special going on or it's Sunday and there's church. Anyway, I got up and got ready and then it was time to head off to work. I'm not sure if I mentioned before on here that they opened the theatre for today and tomorrow with free showings of That Thing You Do since it was one of Brian's favorites. There were a lot of people working today. lol And a lot of people showed up to see the movie too. :) I love that job and all, but I feel out of place there like I do at a lot of different places. I'm just not like everyone else and apparently there must be something strange, or weird, or odd, or whatever about me that causes me to be left out of things and whatnot.
After work I came home and my parents left for an adult church social that they have every once in a while where they go have dinner at different people's houses and then dessert at the church. So, I decided I should do something productive and I made a new layout for streeted.net so all you people that ask me about it sometimes, you can be happy now. lol Of course, it's not up yet, but at least I made it and coded it. :D Now I just need to re-organize some things and add some new content, etc. Hopefully it'll all turn out well. lol And hopefully I'll be able to get it done soon. That would be good. ;)
Other than that, I haven't really done much today. I think I've found a good hosting company for rocker-baby.org so I'll probably buy the space tonight and all. I tried to call some people earlier too, but Autumn was working and everyone else was at prom. Damn, I'd like to say a lot of things right here, but I can't because I don't want some of the people that visit this site to read them. Not that they'll read this entry anyways, but on the off chance they do, I don't want their comments on anything. I wish I had someone that I could call up who didn't know everything that goes on around here and would just listen and comment when I ask for it and not say things I don't want to hear. I mean, sometimes people can't tell what it is you do or don't want to hear, but some things that people tell me, if they knew me, which they claim to, then they should know not to say them to me. I'm tired of everyone's stupid speeches on what I should and should not do and what I will or will not regret doing. I've decided and it feels right to me, it feels like God's okay with it, but no one will just leave my decision be. I want out of here. I want away from everyone and everything. I want my parents to go with me, but they like it here so somehow I'll have to figure out how to deal with being away from my mom and how to afford to get out of here like I want to. I used to always think I wouldn't want to leave right after high school, but I do now. For different reasons though. Like, I never thought I'd leave to get away from my parents and I don't want to get away from them, I love them, so that's still the same, but now I want away so I can have a brand new chance at things. I feel like there's nothing for me here. I don't belong. I need out. There's so much more I could say, but I won't. Not to this.
WOOOOOO!!!! I wanna get the autographed hat and the Championship T-Shirt! lol I just thought, you know, I'd share that with all of you real quick. ;)
Well, good uhh... morning I guess. lol Me and my late night habits. Ya know. ;) lol I've been searching the internet for new hosts and whatnot, and I found two that look darn good. lol REALLY cheep and the reviews said they're reliable, so we'll just have to hope. lol I'll probably get space with one of the two I found tomorrow. Then I can get rocker-baby.org up! WEE! I've already got the layout done and everything so now I just need to e-mail the people who'll be blogging there and whatnot and just do a few more things, get the hosting and it'll be up in a couple of days probably. :D YAY! lol
Thursday night I e-mailed Andrew to see if he wanted to go see The Lizzie McGuire Movie when it come out next friday. Then "yesterday" morning at 10 AM, the phone rang and woke me up. Guess who it was! lol It was Andrew and he was all like, "Hey Holly! So what are you and Autumn doing at 11:55 AM today?" lol He invited us to go see Holes so I called up Autumn and she was free and I was free so I called Andrew back and told him we'd meet him there. :) It's good that he called when he did and woke me up otherwise Autumn and I probably wouldn't have been able to get awake and ready if he'd called much later. lol It was good for me to get up at a decent time. ;) lol So yeah, Holes was really good. :) I had the book read to me a long time ago in like 5th grade or something so I didn't really remember what it was about, but it started to come back to me through the movie. lol And it was done really well and I was kinda surprised it turned out as good as it did. A good surprise though.
After the movie we did like we usually do and went and stood by one of our cars and talked for a good twenty minutes at least. lol We're funny like that. ;) And let's see... what did we talk about. Well, Andrew gave me a copy of the album that the European Idol did. I haven't really gotten a chance to listen to it yet though. I was going to play it in the car, but like all the songs are slow and I need to drive with at least SOME upbeat songs. lol Then we talked about Andrew getting the lead in the musical at the college(YAY Andrew!) and talent companies and if he'd gotten a callback from a movie he auditioned for. He didn't, but it's probably only because they were thinking about getting a union actor and Andrew's currently non-union. There could still be hope though and either way, the directory gave Andrew a LOT of good comments and said he really liked him, so that's obviously awesome! lol Oh, and Andrew's taking a class on how to make websites! lol So, I told him if he needed any help with anything he could ask me. lol Which reminds me, I need to send him some of my URLs sometime soon so he can see. :) I always love it when new people get into websites! lol Yes, I'm sad, I know. lmao
After Andrew finally decided that he really should get going, Autumn and I went over to the arcade for some games and I got angry at ParaPara again. lol I think it's like an every other day kinda thing or something. lol We only played a few games. Well, I played four(two DDR and two ParaPara) and Autumn played one ParaPara 'cause she didn't have any money and I'm just so nice that I paid for her game. lol Then we had Subway and got into a really good conversation about education and what we believe are the downfalls of the US school system. It lasted for a good long while too and it would of lasted longer, but we got to her house and she had to get out of the car at that point. lol Good fun though. :)
I went home and an hour later I went back out. lol I went to Andrea's house to hang with her while she did her nails for prom(It's tonight) and stuff. lol We watched Young Ivanhoe, she showed me her new layout(It's way pretty), and, of course, we did our nails. She had this thing that like cleaned your cuticals and stuff so we both used that and then put on the polish. I haven't worn nail polish in a long time. At least a few years. I kinda forget that I have it. lol Plus, when I worked at food places, you weren't allowed to have any polish on your fingers, period. I'd also forgotten how bad it smells too. lol But now my two are light green with sparkles and my fingers are lavendar with sparkles. lol I didn't get cookies though, and it was sad, but I lived and I just had yummy food when I got home. :) lol I've discovered that if I toast this sourdough bread, put a little butter on it, and then spread a good thick layer of granulated honey on top, it's REALLY good! lol I've recently discovered how yummy honey is when it's granulated. Granted, it still tastes good when it's in liquid form, but I think I almost like granulated better. lol The shock, I know! lol
WELL... it's even later/earlier now so I should probably get my butt off the computer and get it into bed. lol It's so hard to do that sometimes and like, I don't feel tired, although I should. I don't know. I think I'm having insomnia problems like I did a few summers ago. Sometimes I just can't get to sleep. I've had times where I take two hours lying in bed before I finally get off to sleep. My mom says I just need to learn to relax myself, but I thought that I was so now I don't know. lol Anyway, TTFN and MAJOR thanks to everyone who's tagged saying they like the layout. :D *big hug to all*
Thursday, April 24, 2003
What do ya know, I've got a new layout up! lol A bit out of the blue, but I needed a new one and I felt motivated today. ;) lol I guess I like it, but it didn't turn out like how I was originally going for. That and I had one dang of a time trying to find a decent text color for the side stuff! lol Arg. And I guess I like the image, well, the bottom 3/4 of it anyway. lol Why that is I do not know, so do not ask. ;) And I know there's got to be a few of you who remember my angry, angry post about the "Do I Have To Cry For You?" video and are now wondering why I chose to use caps from it for my layout. Well, I do still have a lot of grr things in reference to that vid, but at the same time, all the parts I took caps of are just Nickolas looking like the cute doll of a boy that he is. As Aceetha and I would say, Nick is the embodiment of cute. lol Sounds a funny, but it's completely true. Basically, no matter what he'll always be so cute. Aceetha and I have this big plan for when we meet him together... *snickers* lol So yes, now I have a new layout that is... egh, all right. Nick's really the only thing holding it together. ;) lmao I'd love some tags or g-book entries on it though. :D *hint, hint* Oh yes, and I'm still too lazy to change the gbook layout. lol Maybe one of these days. All right, the tummy's getting angry at me now so here I come Shepard's Pie!
Wednesday, April 23, 2003
The memorial service started at 7 PM and like I said before, we got there an hour early and it didn't end until nearly 10 PM. It probably could have gone a lot longer too as I'm sure there were many more people who wanted to speak during the open mic time. So many good things were shared though and it was awesome to hear from everyone. And Wes, one of Brian's boys, got up and played a song with his band and he was just really getting into it on his trumpet. And Nate too, he got up and said some wonderful things, kinda added some comedy in it. And then Laura had one of her friends read something for her. Brian's wife got up and said a lot of things and she just held herself together so well, it was amazing. It was all sad, but good at the same time. :) I also was kinda forced into talking to Nate and Wes, which was good I guess. On the way in, I had to walk past Nate so I said, "Hi Nate, how are you doing?" and he said, "Hi Holly. I'm okay, how are you?" and I said, "I'm okay." Then after the service was over there were goodies to eat in the entrance room and I was walking back toward my parents with a chocolate chip cookie when I almost walk into Wes and he said something like, "Had to get a cookie huh Holly?" lol I was a like, oh, yeah and asked him how he was holding up and he said pretty good, good friends, so that was good to hear. :)
When we got home, I put in Rabbit-Proof Fence only to discover the whole movie's in subtitles. Yeah, so not for me. lol I don't know, I guess some people like watching movies like that, but for me it's like, how can I watch the movie when I'm trying to read the whole story at the bottom of the screen in bright yellow text with black outline? lmao Oh yes, and I got my $75 check from the stupid talent place in the mail today! lol For those of you that never heard the whole story, it's in referance to that post about me being really stupid and doing something I shouldn't have, but I did anyway. I was conned, basically, but mommy rocks and she called and threatened to take them to court if they didn't send me the check for re-imbursement, so they did! lol Took them quite long enough though. lol But I got it back, so that's good. Now I just need to get a job. Kinda bites, but yeah. lol Don't know where I want to work though. Well, actually, I have an idea, but that's my secret for now. ;)
Sunday night I had a major creative burst. Not only did I make a layout that I love for rocker-baby.org(gotta buy space for it still, lol), but I also got hit with the perfect name for my Nick Carter domain I've been wanting! lol AND I even created a logo for it and I heart it BIG time. lol Like, it looked good in my head, but I didn't think I was going to make it look right on the comp, but I did! Wee! Thank you God! (Edit: Oh yeah, you want the link? lol NickSTAR.com) And I had the greatest conversation with Kriss on AIM. lol Let's just say it was something about Nick running for president, Brian running as his VP and then Aaron as their personal secretary. lmao I saved it, it's funny as heck! You rock Kriss! ;)
Monday I went and got Autumn in the early afternoon. We went and did a bit of shopping and then came and hung at my house for a while before leaving once again. We went and had Subway(Autumn's treat. yay!) and then we went to youth group. I haven't been to youth group in a LONG time and I felt like I should show up since Brian was the high school leader and all. It was really weird though. Almost 50 kids showed up! There was prayer time and there were some really good prayers said aloud by some of the other kids. Especially a good one from Brian J. who also works at the theatre. He's a good kid and he's got a really good heart. I didn't feel right being there though. I've never felt right being there and this time was worse. I don't feel like I fit in at my church at all. Then of course I felt terrible that I'd dragged Autumn to it and all. That was pretty stupid of me. We left early as the last part was just baking cookies or playing basketball and I just didn't want to stay.
Autumn and I were going to go to EMP yesterday, but we slept until one o'clock! I don't even know how we managed to do that either! lol We weren't even up as late as we normally are, it was strange. Oh, and I thought up the perfect domain name for Autumn to get so she's going to as soon as she can get a check card and then I can start linking her on here! lol Technically I could now 'cause she's got a livejournal, but I'm too lazy to type out the entire address. ;) lmao I took her home around five and then went to the store for my mom and rented some movies. I rented this Disney one I'd never heard of before and my mom and I watched it when I got back and it was pretty good, I liked it. :) I also rented Rabbit-Proof Fence since we couldn't go see it at the theatre and all. Haven't watched that one yet though. I ended up staying up until 4 AM last night finishing my book, The Angel's Command. I only had the intent to read a chapter or two, but then it turned into ten and finishing the book. ;) lol It was good though. :)
Tonight's the memorial service for Brian at church. My dad was asked to be an usher so we're all going an hour early. There are going to be a LOT of people there. There was also a nice article in the local paper today that I read when I got up. Anyway, I'd imagine the service will be at least two hours long. They're going to have an open mic time for anyone who wants to to go up and talk about Brian and what he meant to them, etc. I'd imagine a fair amount of people will do that. There's also going to be desserts for afterwards so people can talk together and everything. I just hope it all goes well and everything and maybe it'll bring some peace to people, especially Brian's family. Well, off I go. TTFN!
Sunday, April 20, 2003
Well, somewhat surprisingly, everyone remained fairly composed at church this morning. Or at least, they did during the second service, don't know about the first. Of course, there was the sound of sniffling throught, but everyone did okay. Happy Easter/Resurection(sp?) Day to you all by the way! It was a little hard to think about it being Easter today, but it all worked out. I guess it's hard for me to think about it being a holiday too since my family doesn't really do anything special. We're just kind of hanging out at home all day and lucky me, my mom's going to have me do chores. Oh, I'm so excited... *rolls eyes* lol
Well, I didn't really end up working on any site stuff last night. lol Just kinda didn't feel like it. Maybe today, but I've got a hankering to read more of The Angel's Command too so I don't know what I'll choose. I was reading last night before I went to bed and at the end of the chapter I stopped on, they got arrested so now I need to find out how they get out of it(because they do, of course, lol). I'm also gradually stewing over what to do with some of my sites/domains and things. I've decided some of them and others I'm still working on. I was feeling really unmotivated to do anything with any of my sites for a good week or something, but now I'm feeling more motivated and I want to make everything more organized. lol And I sort of got a new layout idea for this site because I think it's time I got a new one. lol All righty, off I go to do whatever and my chores. At least cleaning the bathtub kinda works on my arm muscles, right? lol
Saturday, April 19, 2003
I guess I feel better today. My mom went to visit Brian's family today. I was going to go with her, but I felt too weird about it so I stayed home. Tomorrow's going to be a cryfest at church, but God gave us tears to help us get our emotions out. One of Brian's boys, Nate, is particularly on my mind right now. I think he's a freshman now or something, but I'm just worried about him a bit because he seems the type of guy to hold in things and I guess so far, that's what he's been doing and I just hope he's all right. There's going to be a service on Wednesday night at church and I'm sure it will be packed with people. Brian was very well known and loved by everyone in this area. Anyway, I just needed to get a little of that out on here. :)
I was a good girl today. :D I put up the new layout at The Street Lists and did a bit of re-vamping and re-organizing over there. Then I started to get ideas for new fanlistings and I had to tell myself NO. lol I do not need any more fanlistings right now. I was so excited though because there's finally a Howie fanlisting again! :D *dances* I'll have to go join that and the other like 50 fanlistings I haven't yet sometime soon. lol It's going to take me a few hours to join them all, I'm sure. lmao I guess that's why I've been putting it off. lol
Now I'm sitting here trying to decide if I'd rather work on streeted.net or red-berri.net. Or, I could work on the group blog site too. lol Decisions, decisions! I'm sure I'll figure out something. ;) lol I've also got to think about buying space for a site and I'm still stewing over a new domain and whatnot. Plus, I'm trying to think of what to do with fear-of-tears.net. I'm kinda thinking about just making it the fanlisting for "End Of Forever" since it's a line from the song, I have no clue what else to do with the domain, and I can't seem to part with the domain either. Let me know on the tag what you think about that if you would. :)
Humm... guess I don't really have anything else to say for now. lol So, I'll go try and be productive. Wish me luck! ;)
Friday, April 18, 2003
I was really happy earlier. Autumn and I got to hang out and we ran into my friend from archery a few quearters back, Nicole, and she went and had lunch with us. Then Autumn and I went to the arcade and they had ParaPara 2nd Mix back so we got two hour time cards each and played. I was so excited because I got a 531 max combo on Dance Maniax and I've only ever gotten over 500 two other times I think and last time I was there on my b-day, I sucked and couldn't even crack 100! And I discovered I can play DDR better now! I was playing the solo 4th Mix Plus one and suddenly I figured out how to pick my feet up faster so I could keep up. Granted, I'm still pretty crappy at it, but I was getting max combos of 60 and that was dang happy in my book! lol Plus, I cleared the levels that I would have never been able to clear before. :)
After that, Autumn and I decided that we really needed something good and cold to drink to we went to Target and got ICEEs and they were quite tasty. :) Autumn's got to work tomorrow though so I had to take her back home after that. And she's going to have to pay me back the money she owes me next week 'cause the bank we stopped at wouldn't cash her check for her 'cause she doesn't have an account there, etc. So, all was pretty happy and good save that my feet hurt from playing the same song on DDR over and over again. lol But then when I got home, it wasn't so good.
My mom said she had something to tell me. Something that was sad. I said I didn't really want to hear it, did I and had terrible thoughts run through my mind that something had happened to one or both of my grandparents. She said I did want to hear it even though it was sad and I started tearing up at that point and getting really scared. I sat down next to her on my bed and she told me Brian S. had died sometime early this morning. I'm starting to cry again. It really hasn't totally hit me that it's real yet, I don't suspect it will until I go somewhere where I should see him and I don't. I don't expect any of you to know who I'm talking about, but you'll kind of know when I say that he was my boss at the theatre and his family has been going to my church for as long as I can remember having been there and he was such a good person. Granted, I never really knew him that well or anything, but he was always so happy and nice and just a good person that you could tell knew God in a special way. And now I guess he's gone. He has two boys and a girl. I know them all, they're good kids, and his wife is such a nice, caring woman too. They've all always been nice to me. I don't want to ever know what it's like to lose someone I love so much.
I was just thinking yesterday how blessed I've been never to have had anyone I've known die. Strange, isn't it? And today, before I left to go out, I had this desire to bring my Herald beanie baby with me, just to sit in my car, I've never done it before. God knew. He always knows and I love Him for the little comforts He brings me and for everything. I know Brian's in a better place, but it still doesn't seem real to me. I just saw him last night when I went to get my paycheck. He was working in the projector room so I just got my check and left, I didn't wan to bother him. He was just fine. I guess he died of a heart attack. He was up late reading and when they found him in the morning he was just dead. Mom said that his brother told her Brian had a happy look on his face. It's starting to set in more now, I think I need to go and cry on my bed.
Thursday, April 17, 2003
Let's see, things I did today. I got up at something like 2 PM, checked the mail hoping to see my $75 check from the stupid talent agency(you remember the post about doing stupid things, that's what it was about, I gave them $75 'cause I'm dumb and I was swindled), but it wasn't there. Then after a while mom came home and then I went to pick up my theatre check, deposit it at the bank and stop by the store. I got a can of split pea soup which I ate when I got home, a can of this potato soup stuff, and a box of Swiss Miss french vanilla hot chocolate mix 'cause I ran out of my chocolate sensation stuff by them. I find that with my way of making hot chocolate, the vanilla stuff is really good because it makes it taste extra creamy. Then, you know, I went home.
After a while I decided I'd look through my older BSB scrap books and find some pictures to scan for making some new layouts, but in the process I had the sudden urge to write a letter to the Backstreet Boys instead. So I did. lol And it's going off to them c/o the BSB fan club with tomorrow's mail. I'd thought about writing letters to them before years and years ago, but there was never a purpose to them and for some reason today I was suddenly inspired so I opened up Works and began to type away. It's kind of an odd letter really, but it makes sense to me. lol Plus what are the odds they'll ever get it anyway, right? They're not good odds, that's for sure, but I figured, hey, why not give it a shot.
I also felt inspired to work on my sites today, so I made the layout I've been promising for The Street Lists. :) It's not up yet because I still have to code it and all, but it should be up tomorrow or Saturday I'd imagine. I like it okay. Or at least, I like it better than the current layout there. lol I think I'll make my next project streeted.net because it needs a happier layout and I've got changes for it. Then after and in the midst of that, I need to work on more tutorials and recipies for red-berri.net 'cause I'd like to get that up soon. I've always wanted to have a site with tutorials and I actually do get a fair amount of questions about different things I do with my sites, so I think it would be a lot easier just to refer people to a pre-written tutorial rather than writing out quick instructions to each of them when a lot of times it's about the same thing. lol And I've got a group blog domain coming and I'd like to get a Nick domain. I thought I had the perfect name and all what I wanted to use it for set, but now I'm not so sure. Good thing I didn't buy that name yet. ;) lol And I've got an idea for another new domain as well. I'm letting that one stew currently though.
And I'm talking to Autumn on AIM right now and her and I are going to go do something tomorrow afternoon. What, who knows! lol She gets paid tomorrow too so she can actually afford to do something too! lol 'Tis a miracle! I need to job hunt too, but mom and I talked today and decided I could wait until next week to go out and do it. I'm hoping I can get a good job pretty quick because if I don't I'll be out for probably at least 5 hours two days a week trying to find something and you know, that just doesn't sound like a whole lot of fun to me. lol Anyway, nothing much else to say and I'm going to want hot chocolate soon, I know it. Hehe. Until my next blog...
Wednesday, April 16, 2003
Where do babies come from?
Well, that depends on your own personal opinion as well as your audience. One could say that babies come from God, which I believe to be the truth. One could also say that babies come from a woman's "tummy" which is also, in essence, the truth. Or, if a very little kid asks you, it's usually good to tell them about the stork. lol Either that or make up something strange like they get dropped off by passing alien space crafts. :D lol
I really want to watch a movie tonight, and I probably will, but I've noticed that it's really not as fun to watch a movie all by yourself as it is to watch it with someone else or a group of people. You know? But what can I do otherwise, so whatever. Now I'll just need to decide what it is that I should watch. lol Or I could be further good and work on making some new layouts and work on some new sites, etc, but that's not exactly likely. lol I was good today though and updated most of my fanlistings and such. I'm giving three of them away. One I already have someone for, but if anyone's interested in taking over domainFAN or Power Source, then just go to that respective fanlisting and follow the instructions on the main page. It's not that I've suddenly decided I'm not a fan of any of these things, I just decided that I don't have the desire to take care of them like I really should.
I didn't get out of bed until after 4 PM today. No specific reason, I just did. I may have very well laid in bed longer too except that Tammy called me back finally and I asked her if she wanted to go have dinner with me. :D So we went and had Mexican food and it was very tasty. lol Except that instead of beef in one of my things, they gave me chicken and yeah, it just wasn't quite the way that it should have been. lol It was all right though and the rest of my food made up for it. :) Then we went to the mall for a bit and went to Claire's where I got a Grumpy bear cell phone cover and some rings. We also went by this chocolate store because I had a gift certificate. So, I got a new beanie baby, a few small candies, and, drumroll please, a box of Bertie Bott's Every Flavor Beans! lmao I made Tammy eat the sardine one and I had what we think was booger. Ew! lol I'm afraid to eat any more. lol Then we both had cherry ones to get the nasty tastes out of our mouths. Humm... I think I'll try a grass one currently... *gets back from spitting it out and pops another cherry one in her mouth* Yuck! I've never had grass before so I don't know if it's the same taste or not, but it's gross! Bluck! lol
I had wanted to go bowling or go to the arcade tonight, but no one's got money but me or they couldn't go anyway so I'm just staying home. Humm... I need to remember to package up Sam's b-day presents and send them to her. I promised I'd send it off this week so I'd had better! lol Anyhoo, off I go to have a snack and start my movie if my parents will give up the TV. Technically I could say that it's my TV and my DVD player because I'm the one that paid for them, but then they could say that it's their house and it would never work so I'll just have to be patient. lol Plus, it's not like I plan to go to bed any time soon anyway. lol
Tuesday, April 15, 2003
Sorry I haven't blogged for a while. I haven't been feeling very good lately. Not nessesarily physically, although it's been a bit of that, but mostly emotionally. I don't want to talk about it with anyone. Not anyone I can talk to anyway... I feel... really lonely and I don't want anyone calling me up and talking to me about it or asking me anything and if you do, I will hang up on you. So just know that I don't want to talk about it or hear any speeches from you about what you THINK is up with me. There are so many things that I want to do, but I can't see paths to any of them. It's like I've hit a dead end. Also, I don't know how much I'll be online for a while, just because.
So what have I done since Thursday? Well, I got my b-day present from Sam in the mail and it's way cute. :D She got me a Canadian beanie baby. lol And I worked on Sunday and watched Evelyn while I was there and it was good, I liked it. As far as the other things from the weekend, I don't remember. Yesterday Ani and I went shopping and I got a seat buckle belt and this half-tie/chain necklace thing from Hot Topic. There were these way cool Tripp pants there too, but I didn't even bother to try them on because I should not be buying another pair of $50 pants any time soon. Plus, yeah, nevermind.
Today I babysat again and when I got there I discovered there was an extra kid, but it wasn't like I had to do anything anyway so no big. I got there at 8 AM and read my book, The Angel's Command, for almost two hours before any of them woke up. Then we played some games and I watched the Disney Atlantis movie with one of the girls while the other two watched another movie in the other room. It was all fine and dandy and I got $50 for today and last Thursday which is dang good for me. :) I didn't really do anything else today save mill about the house.
Okay, I have to go now before I start typing things up on here that I don't want posted. Maybe I'll be good and update fanlistings.
Thursday, April 10, 2003
Oh yeah, I just totally remembered this! lol I'm listening to Black & Blue right now and "Everyone" reminded me. lol While I was babysitting earlier today, we were looking at their board games to find something to play and they had that Backstreet Boys Around The World game. lmao And you see, I've never played it before, so, we played. LMFAO Man, that game is so freakin' sad, but at the same time, I know that if I got a few people to play it with me *cough*Sam, Aki, Aceetha, and maybe even Tori and Kriss*cough* we'd have a dang good laugh with some of those things you have to "perform." lmao Let's see, what did I have to do... oh yeah, one of the times I had to dance like my grandma to SMTMOBL. *has no idea how the game makers matched dancing like a grandma to that song, but you know, whatever floats your boat* lol The two girls thought I was way cool too because I didn't even need to hear the multiple choice answers to the majority of the questions about the Boys and the song lyrics. I don't know, to me that kinda says, wow, why DO I know that? lol The music stuff is fine, but dang, I know some stuff about those guys that I really wish I didn't know. lol Example: The whole thing with Nick and his green briefs. lol Lord please help me NEVER to picture that! Ahh!!!!
P.S. I'm putting up the "Yes I Will" fanlisting right now so you can go check it out here in just a few minutes. :)
You know what I love? I love the beginning of the DWYB live track off the BK fans CDs when Aj screams his yee haw thing! lmao It kicks butt! And Nick's singing lightly in the intro before that too, that's quite happy as well. And I love all the added "ohs" and "uh-huhs" that they add in the middle of the songs in concert. Gives the songs good flavor, you know? Speaking of the Boys, I didn't write in my post yesterday that I watched a few hours worth of BSB stuff I've taped off of TV. It was quite nice and it made me all happy, but then it was sad at the same time because the Boys aren't like that anymore. I could go on, but I'll save it for another post or something or another.
I was a good girl last night too and I made the layout for the "Yes I Will" fanlisting and I updated some things as well. :) I'm so proud of myself when I'm good like that. lol *looks at the clock* Humm... it's about time to order the pizzas. I'd better not forget. lol I'll have to be good though and only eat a slice, maybe two depending on how big they are. I can't be eating too much anymore, I've done it for too long. Now, most you don't know what I look like, but I'm not like overweight or anything, but I could stand to lose a bit. Mostly I just want to firm up and get in shape and whatnot, but I have to make sure I eat well. I'm starting to do better and I'm working really hard not to just eat if I'm bored and stuff. lol Why in the hell am I talking about this on my blog? *shakes head and wonders about herself*
I got back from babysitting today about an hour ago. It was just fine. I was all happy too because they've got the Disney version of Robin Hood so I got to watch that!!! *dances a jig* Wee! lol I've gotta get that on DVD soon. I can get it pretty cheep off of half.com at least. :) It was cool too because I have more appreciation for the animation in that movie now and I really love the style they did it in. Plus I really heart foxes and you know, Robin's a studly fox in that one. ;) I think Autumn is the only person I know who understands this whole thing about thinking cartoon characters are studly. lmao Oh yeah, and I'm babysitting again on Tuesday... at 8 AM! Yipes! lol I'll be there for seven hours that day. lol It's some money though at least since I'm not going to make much in any other way. lol
Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets is out tomorrow!!!! *throws confetti up in the air* SCORE! lol Guess who's driving out to Target tomorrow morning as soon as she gets up? lol C'mon, I know you can guess! lol ;) I'm so excited! And I can't wait for POA to hit the theatres either. I still think they should break it into two movies since there's so much info in that book and I don't want any of it left out, but I don't think they're going to take my advice on that one. lol Oh, here's a question I kept on forgetting to answer too, and I'd like some more too... PLEASE. :D
If 2+2/2 is not 2, what is it?
WHAT?! All right, that's just plain mean to do that to my brain, ya know? The answer is... FROGGY! lol 'Cause I found a frog(or well, the kitties found it) on the carpet in the living room a couple nights ago! lmao
Well, I just went and ordered the pizza, and dang it's way expensive to get pizza delivered nowadays. It's almost as bad as gas! *gasp* The horror, I know! lol Humm... now, what to do while I wait? *goes off to ponder the question and find something to keep herself busy for a while*
Wednesday, April 9, 2003
You know those really stupid things that you do where you KNOW in your head that you shouldn't do it, but for some reason or another you do anyway and then right after you do them you suddenly realize how stupid you were? Well, I had one of those today. A major one of those today and wow... do I feel stupid. lol Well, not nessesarily stupid though really just, more like I was not aware of the things I should have been and I was not prepared for what I needed to be prepared for. I don't want to go into great detail because like I said, it's pretty stupid and I don't really want everyone in the whole wide world to know about it, but I was partially conned into doing something today by the talent agency I went to and I had a lot of trouble trying to say no. Praise the Lord for my mommy! I have no clue what I'd do without her and major thanks be to God that he gave me this major feeling against what I did so that I wouldn't be further stupid. lol It's nothing, you know, really BAD or anything, just a matter of me being too nice kind of. I have that problem where I'm such a good nice person that I can't seem to believe how people could lie to me or try to get me to do things with the words they say. I need to work on understanding that and being more aware of looking for signs that that's what's going on. Anyway, mommy gave me advice to fix the situation so I called and left them a message and hopefully tomorrow they'll call me back and tell me they're sending me my check back. lol I guess I feel a little better now about it and it's a learning experiance thing, ya know? Well, mommy has asked me if I'd like to watch a movie with her and I've accepted so I'd better end this. Oh yeah, and I discovered today that I lost five pounds just by trying to eat a little healtier and not overeat! :D YAY! I'll post more later and I've got a sort of announcement to post too. Either tonight or tomorrow evening since I've got a babysitting job during the day tomorrow. :) Ta ta!
Tuesday, April 8, 2003
Yay! Happy birthday Sam!!! :D I just sent her a sign a few minutes ago. :) Speaking of b-day signs, I got two more the other day that you can see here. :)
In other news, I didn't go to archery today. I got up and got ready and then asked God to will me to leave when I should have if he didn't want me to drop my classes. Well, time came and I didn't feel like I should go, so I didn't. I watched The Goonies instead and then when that was over I realized that I should probably run out the door. lol See, I made an appointment to talk to my running start counselor at the high school to make sure that it was okay for me to drop them and that I for sure had all my required classes and enough credits to graduate. I do. lol And it's okay so tomorrow I'm going to go out and fill out a form to get my classes dropped because I dont' think I can do it over the internet now that it's past the first week of classes. Plus, it'd be good to have them do it while I'm there to make sure it gets done properly. I was just gonna do that tomorrow, but then I called a number from the classifieds about extras and they didn't really give me a choice except to show up in Seattle tomorrow at 1 o'clock. lol So, off I go for another attempt again. I've been to a number of different things in the past and they all turned out to be ways for the companies to get me to spend a lot of money to take their classes, but for an extra, I shouldn't have to take anything because all it requires is that I have the right look for the production and be able to follow directions and I'm very good with directions. :)
I was a good girl last night and I launched Forgive My Honesty which is the "Don't Want You Back" fanlisting that Aceetha's co-running with me. :) Which reminds me, I need to send her the login info still. lmao Oops. And I've come up with a new layout idea for the "Yes I Will" fanlisting so all I need to do now is make it. And I also came up with an idea for a new layout for The Street Lists. That'll have to wait until YIW is up though.
Okay, I've gotta go and eat some dinner now because I'm going with mommy and daddy to see The Pianist again. GOOD movie. Humm... maybe I'll see if Tammy wants to come. I forgot to say, I think, that she called me on my b-day and wished me a happy birthday. :) I wasn't sure if she would or not, but she did so that was all nice and special. She said she wanted to go see The Pianist with me some time this week so maybe she's available tonight. Anyway, better get off the computer. :) TTFN!
Monday, April 7, 2003
Well, I just got back from the store a bit ago. I had to go down there because while my mom is finw tih using tissues as toilet paper when we've run out, I'm not exactly. lol So, I went to the store and bought toilet paper. lmao I got some other stuff too 'cause I figured I might as well while I was there. And when I walked in I saw this guy named Marc that I kinda know 'cause he's been in my classes before and he's all popular and was ASB president before and such. lol But you know, I didn't say hi to him and I didn't figure he'd noticed me anyway, but apparently I was wrong because he walked by and was all like, "Hi Holly, how's [name of college] going?" I was a little shocked, but I talked to him for a little bit and whatnot, but then I figured I should say goodbye 'cause I had to move on to getting other stuff outside of the produce department. lol Good thing I decided to wait to get the toilet paper last too. ;) lmao
Oh yeah, and I should be at work around this time on a Monday, but I was going to switch with Andrew, but I called work earlier and asked about scheduling to make sure what was going on and well, now I don't have a job. I mean, I've still got the theatre, but one day a week for four hours doesn't really do much, you know? Georgio's just laid me off because they're cutting back hours so those of us who had only night hours are now laid off, but she said she'd call me back in June when the hours went back to normal again. And you know, it would have been really nice if they'd have given me a bit of notice on this and all. They just up and decided to close at 6 PM from no on and they're also not going to be open on Sundays either(which doesn't matter to me at all anyway, but yeah). I'm not angry about it at all though and in all human respects I really should be, but I feel no reason to be and in the past year I've discovered I can't get angry about things like I used to and now I can't be angry about anything for more than an hour or a day in more extreme cases. I count it all as a good thing though, but now I just don't know what's going on with things and all. And it's gotten me thinking too and me thinking is not usually good.
I think I'm going to drop my two P.E. classes and find myself a full-time job. I was thinking back on Thursday and a bit over the weekend about dropping them and now it's making even more sense to me. So, I think I'm going to, but I gotta pray more about it and I wanna talk to my counselor at the high school to make sure it's okay and everything too. I don't need the credits and as much as I love archery, there's no one I can talk to in that class and it would take a lot of the fun out of it as I already started to notice on Thursday. And then the other thought I had was a trip. I've saved up a good amount of money in the last month or two and I'm thinking a little vacation would be nice, but again, I'm not sure about that. I'd kinda like to go to Florida though.
I also assume some of you might be interested in how my birthday went yesterday. It started out quite nice with my mommy coming in and waking me up with happy b-day wishes and asking me if I wanted pancakes. :) lol Pancakes are good. And she got me the first four Harry Potter books in paper back which is just what I asked her for so that was all happy too and she wrote nice things in my card and daddy wished me a happy birthday and all was good. Then I went to church and I was just going to go to normal service instead of Sunday School, but I thought I'd go see if maybe it'd be reasonably small for once and then I'd think about going to that instead of service. So, I peeped my head by the window, but it was too big and I didn't feel like going so I started walking back down the hall. However, Karen(my SS teacher) saw me poke my head by the window and came out and called me back. It was okay and I got two good verses that were good for me to here. I didn't want to say it was my b-day, but Karen was going to put me to work on some stuff and I didn't want to do it so I said I had a good excuse and had to tell her so of course she repeated it loudly and half the people heard and wished me hollow Happy Birthdays.
After church we went straight to the arcade and I was all excited and mom and dad got me a two hour game card and they were going to play games with me! So, we went and I played DanceManiax while they watched and then I turned around to play ParaPara and got up there, put my card in and then I noticed something was wrong... very wrong. ParaPara 2nd Mix was gone and replaced with v.1.1! I tried to find out what happened and to see if they'd bring back the good one soon, but no one I asked knew. So that was a downer on my time there because I usually like to play that a ton and the 1.1 version sucks! It's got hardly any songs and you can't do nonstop unless you play hard levels that I'm not good at. lol and yeah, it just, sucked. But the whole thing was all right and mommy did DDR with me and got an A! I was so proud of her! lol I got an A too and we did beginner level because that's all I can do anyway. lmao After that we went and had lunch at Taco Bell and then went home.
I worked at the theatre and I was all aggitated with myself 'cause I was a little late and I hate being late there. And then I got to watch the movie during the first showing. It's The Pianist right now. I strongly urge all of you to go and see that movie. Very powerful. I kept praying through the movie that God would never let anything like that happen again. It's just so terrible and everything all those people had to go through... I just can't understand how a person could do something like that to another person. Everyone should go see that movie. After the movie was not so happy though. I thought we had an hour before the next movie like we usually do, so I went to the bathroom and I came out to find the whole lobby full of people and I had to work consessions all by myself for a bit and we started to run out of popcorn and it was scary! lol Then I felt bad 'cause I hadn't realized about the time and all. :( But it went okay.
I got home, found a b-day sign from Kriss in my inbox that wished me happy, "nickyful" b-day. lol It was very cute. Sadly, by b-day wasn't very nickyful. :( But oh well. I decided to watch the rest of The 10th Kingdom for the whole night after work. It's like 7 and a half hours long or something. lol So I watched the first disk on Saturday night and then the other two last night. Part of it's really cool and some of the stuff in it's really cool, but I can't decide exactly what I think about it. lol Like, it's good and I like it, but I think they could have done so much better on some things and I think it was a little dragged out at times. But yeah, I'm glad Aki lent it to me. :)
Well, I'm sure there's more I had that I wanted to say, but I can't remember it right now. Well, wait, I just remembered that I called Andrew(movie Andrew) and talked to him for a while, but my tummy's growling quite a bit because I haven't eaten yet today so I think I'd better wait to post about that later or something. lol TTFN!
Saturday, April 5, 2003
Gee, I wonder where this question came from...Okay, so Nick and Aaron show up at your house on your birthday and they both want to take you out for the day... You've got to choose one or the other. Who and why?
Oh grr! lol This was meant to torment Tori, not me! lol I don't wanna choose. I wanna hang with NC and AC! *pouts* I refuse to choose so I'll hang with Nick on my b-day and then Aaron and I will hang the day after! lol :D I know, I'm a bugger. ;)
lol So, I'm 18 tomorrow and I got three more b-day signs today. :) One from Ani, one from Sam, and one from Aceetha. They can all be viewed here. :) That reminds me too, I need to make Sam her b-day sign asap! lol I've got the picture I'm gonna use I just need to make it and figure out what to write. ;) Hopefully she'll like it.
All right, let's see, a few different and rather interesting things have happened since I last posted. First off, we didn't end up seeing A Man Apart yesterday because none of us could get there on time. lol I picked up Autumn and Andrea and we were running way late so I called Andrew and left him a message saying we weren't going to get there in time. Then he called back and said he couldn't get there in time either so he'd take a rain check on it. So, Autumn, Andrea, and I went to the mall instead and I bought lots of stuff I shouldn't have. lol But first, Ani gave me b-day presents. She bought me TWO of the Harry Potter Lego sets!!!!! *dances* lol First she got me the Slytherin one, but then she talked to me on the phone and I said I didn't care which one she got me as long as I got a Harry Lego, so she went out and bought me the Quidditch Practice one too! lol I setup the Slytherin one last night, but I still haven't setup the Quidditch one yet. lol I'll to that tonight or tomorrow. :) I should take pics too! lol
Then we went into the mall and I bought a TON of stuff from the Sanrio store! lol I hadn't bought anything out of one of those stores for YEARS. I used to toally love Hello Kitty. :) I still have some stuff actually. lol And now I've got a lot more! I couldn't help it... everything was like $2 or something so I just kept tossing stuff in my basket. lol Now what I'll do with it all, I don't know. ;) Then we went to Wizards of the Coast and I got this cool card game called Nano Fictionary. You get to make up stories with it and it sounds like lots of fun! lol Haven't gotten to play it yet though because you need at least three people and half an hour to an hour to play. While we were there, we ran into Autumn's family. lol Then we ate at Zoopa and her family stalked us there! lol The last thing we did at the mall was go to Nordstroms so Ani could buy herself some stuff. Then we left to go to Fred Meyers where Ani'd left her car. We went in and found Danny(Aki's old next-door neighbor) and talked to him for a bit then we wandered the store looking for the toy area so I could get Spite & Malice. We finally found it and yay, they actually had Spite & Malice there so I got it and I got some Pooh playing cards and Mickey playing cards. :) After that Ani and Aki came over to my house and we played Spite & Malice for a bit, but then they had to go. I opened the door to see them out and guess what... it'd snowed! lol Just a little bit and it's all gone now, but it was still cool. :)
I stayed up way late last night watching TV and reading, so of course I slept for quite a while today. I got up, took a shower, and was getting ready for work when I realized I should call and tell them I was running a bit late. I called and they said we were closing at 6 PM instead of 8 PM and they didn't know if I was still working or not, but I could go get my tips if I wanted. Oh yes, and the tips, I asked Alonna yesterday about them and I guess they were "no where to be found," but apparently they "found" them or my work decided to compensate because I got my $100 when I got to work today and then they told me I wasn't working for sure and that from now on we're always closing at 6 PM instead of 8 PM. Apparently they just decided this out of the blue or something. So, currently I don't really have any work hours at all and I don't know if they're going to change my schedule or what. So yeah, I really need to find a new job. Anyone got any ideas of where I should work? lol
As for how I've spent my evening off, I've just been hanging here at home and doing some web stuff. I updated a fanlisting or two and I'm thinking about getting rid of a few of my sites as well, but I haven't completely decided yet. I'm going to work on coding the layout for Aceetha's and my DWYB fanlisting tonight too and I think I'm going to do a new layout for YIW because the one I made looks like crap. lol Hopefully I can get those both up really soon. :) Anyway, off I go to do that stuff and maybe go watch a little TV. ;)
Friday, April 4, 2003
Well, I just woke up(got an early b-day present from my body, lmao) and decided to check my e-mail. Low and behold, three more questions for me AND I got my first b-day sign! It's from Tara! :) You can see it here under the ones for my 18th b-day. :) I decided to stick them all there on 4606.net 'cause it seemed like the best way to do it. lol Thanks Tara!!!!! :D
Can you jump up and down and sing Nick songs at the same time?
Well, I CAN, but whether or not I sing on tune, sound decent, and am not gasping for air every few words is a whole other story! lol
*best Jesse Tuck voice* You're JOSHING me, right? *snickers, then runs away*
I am NOT joshing you! *looks taken aback* I would NEVER josh YOU! :p
Who's a better archer: Robin Hood or Legolas? (Which would win a competition?)
Robin Hood, hands down. Why you ask? Because he's Robin Hood dangit! And I mean, you know, mad props to Leggy and all for his nifty shooting of two arrows at once and being able to shoot while sliding down stairs, but still, not enough to beat my Robin. 'Cause you know, Robin can shoot like six arrows at once! (Refer to the cover of Men In Tights, lol) And plus, Legolas would shoot at the target first and then Robin would pull a Robin Hood(actual technical term for it) and split Leggy's arrow and Robz would win! lol Plus, we don't really know how well Leggy would do with targets, we know how he does shooting at orcs and such, but not bales of hay, could be a whole other story on that one too! lol
I think I get way too much amusement out of these questions. lol At least more than I should, I'm sure. ;) Great, I've only got an hour and a half before I need to leave to run some errands and then head to the movie. Looks like we're going to see A Man Apart after all and that makes me happy 'cause I don't want to see Phone Booth. lol Shoot! That reminds me, I was supposed to call a few people too! I sent out e-mails, but I don't have everyone's e-mail address. Arg. lol Anyway,TTFN!
Thursday, April 3, 2003
Well, I didn't end up watching The Mummy Returns last night like I'd planned. I ended up adding people to fanlistings instead. lol I watched it today though before I went to work, or well, I should say I watched all of it save for the last 10-15 minutes 'cause I had to leave. lol I could finish it tonight since I get to sleep in way late tomorrow, but I think I'll watch something else instead. Maybe Harry Potter or Dungeons and Dragons. That won't be for a bit yet though 'cause I'm talking to some peeps online(including my cousin Mike again, 'cause he's on spring break) and I'm waiting for a few phone calls. lol I'm hoping for a movie tomorrow night with Autumn, Andrea, Andrew(dang, all theses A names... I'm so confused!), and another girl from movement class. I wanna see Basic, The Core(to laugh at it's unrealizm), and A Man Apart. I think we'll end up seeing A Man Apart or they may end up forcing me to go see Phone Booth which doesn't look all too appealing to me. lol I don't know that I can sit through a whole movie about a guy standing in a phone booth trying not to get killed and to get everyone to believe it's not his fault. lol
I worked today so that I could have tomorrow off. I ended up working with Andrew(not the same as the movie one, remember) 'cause Stefanie called in sick. It went well except that Andrew told me a bunch of stuff that's not at all happy. I'm not sure currently if it's all true or if they're joshing me, so I won't go into it much on here, but he told me someone stole our tip money($100 for each of us and there are three of us who haven't gotten ours yet, so it'd be $300) out of the safe and there's only two people who could get into it and it's odd that the other money wasn't taken as well. So yeah, I'm going to casually ask about when I'm getting my tips tomorrow when I go to get my check and see what they tell me because Andrew said no one knows that he knows and we're not supposed to know, etc. Whatever as long as I get my tip money eventually.
Ack! I forgot to mention yesterday, Autumn got a job! She's making $10 an hour at a little kid's shoe store! lmao I wanna make $10 an hour! lol I get $70 next Friday from Autumn though. lol That's how much we've decided she owes me. I'm sure she owes me more, but we're just counting the money for the concert tickets from December and twenty more dollars for stuff I can't remember. lol And I keep getting b-day money and I got my theatre check today and I get my other paycheck tomorrow... I feel so rich right now even though I'm not really. lmao Lots of money gets to go into savings now though. At least now I'm set for my car insurance payment and that's not for a few months yet, but it's nice not to have to worry about it. :) Then the other savings money's probably going toward my Cali trip this summer. Gotta go camping with the cousins! lol YAY!
We had our first day of shooting today in archery. I was rather bummed though because my teach took over half the class time explaining a bunch of junk and helping some new people that weren't there on Tuesday. Then we finally got to shoot, but I only ended up shooting two rounds and I wasn't quite happy with my performance. In all truth though, I should be happy. Because I haven't shot for 4+ months and I got a 38 on my first round and a 39 on my second which is decent and better than a lot of my rounds my first quarter and the last quarter I took it. I also think I need some getting used to with my bow. I decided to go up 5 lbs. and use a 35 lb. bow and I'm strong enough for it, but I'm not used to it at all so it's going to take a few class days for me to break it in a bit. But I did alright I guess. :)
I got some more "Ask HoL" e-mails in my inbox today so here they all are... lol
So... what kind of jelly do you eat with YOUR peanut butter? *nudge nudge, wink wink*
lmao Okay, I know who sent me that one and when I first read it I was all like, is this something I'm glad I don't get? lol But anyway, to answer the question, I don't like jelly at all, or jam. I actually like honey with peanut butter. :D lol
Which do you think would win: the troll from the HP movie, or the cave troll from the LotR:FotR movie?
Oooh... good question. Definately the cave troll from FotR because yeah, the cave troll was a lot better animated in LotR than the troll in HP and I think it was a bit bigger too. ;) lol
Why is Hol so darn cool? This question continues to stump me...maybe it's cuz she just is! Woo! Hi Hol, guess who? =D
Umm... HoL is not so darn cool. You see, I'm really quite the little nerdy/freakish type. ;) lol And I can't really guess who it was that sent me that one because I can actually think of a fair number of people that might do such a thing. ;) lol
I got one other too, but it wasn't really a question so I deleted it. lol Yay, I like that thing, it's good fun. lolMad props to the person who thought it up, whomever it was. ;) lol Humm... well, I'm still waiting for a phone call so I think I'll play some games, make Kriss her b-day sign for Saturday, and then I'll find a movie to watch. I should really work on website stuff, but I just don't feel motivated at all this week. Maybe it's 'cause of the new quarter and all or something. Hopefully I'll feel motivated next week at least. :)
EDIT: Oh yeah! And I went and bought a box of Trix on my way home from work tonight and got the Kid's Choice CD with Nick's "Don't Walk Away" on it! *dances* I'm so happy! I wanted a box of Lucky Charms or Honey Nut Cheerios, but Trix was the only ones they had at my store with the CDs in them and I like Trix well enough. :) lol Yes, I'm a dork, I know, but at least I'm not the onley one! ;) lmao
Wednesday, April 2, 2003
I was gonna go to meteorology today and then drop it afterwards, but then I was like, what for so I decided just to stay at home. lol So yes, it's dropped and I was hoping to pick up another class, but then I talked to Andrew and he told me he had to drop geology and said there were weekend field trips so that was a no go. lol I actually ended up going to introduction to linguistics tonight to see about that, but it wasn't worth it enough to me. Interesting subject, but it's a Monday/Wednesday class from 7:50 PM to 10:00 PM and I didn't like the way she taught nor did I feel like putting in the needed effort to do well. I'd have to do a lot of stuff on my own and I don't think I'd be able to figure it all out properly. So, half way through the class I jumped up just as she was about to start again after the ten minute break and walked up and handed her back the papers she'd handed out to those of us who hadn't been there Monday and told her I wasn't going to take the class. lol I felt bad about just walking up and telling her that, but at the same time I couldn't just walk out without giving her a reason. lol That would have been rude. So, I guess it's just P.E. classes for me this quarter. We get to start shooting tomorrow in archery... I'm so excited! lol
I also went and met a friend of mine at Starbucks for a chat today. She was one of my youth leaders for a while, but now she's working with junior high. She's really cool though and I like talking to her. She gave me some b-day presents too. lol I was expecting a giant box of Cheese Itz, but she got me something different this time! lol She got me way nifty striped toe socks, a $10 gift certificate to go get myself a new beanie baby(lol), and a $3 Starbucks gift certificate so that I can get myself another carmel apple cider one of these days coming up. lol I love those things. I don't drink coffee period so I get cider or hot chocolate whenever I go there. lol
Oh yeah, and yesterday I put up one of those ask boxes. It's over there to the right under the info about me if you haven't noticed yet. I got one question so far, but I think I'll wait and see if I can get a couple more pretty quick before I post it. :) I figured, hey, Kay and Tori got 'em so I might as well too! lol I can be such a bad follower sometimes. ;)
I also talked to my cousin Mike yesterday on AIM. I asked him for the URL to his college's website. They offer a lot of way fun classes there! And tuition is less than half of what it is where I'm going right now. Granted, I don't currently have to pay for my tuition where I'm at right now, but I was thinking about trying to get my AA Degree afterall and I couldn't afford to go take the needed classes after the state stops paying for me at the end of this quarter. It's just way too much money. Plus, there's a lot of fun classes I'd like to take that my current school doesn't offer. I think I've taken everything at my school that I'd ever really want to take already. Plus, there's not a lot of opportunity for me around here. Not for the things I'd kinda like to get into doing and So Cal would offer so much more to me. There are some problems with my ideas about going down there though so it's going to take a lot of thought on my part and then on the part of others if I decide that's what I wanna do. God will show me the way though. After my talk today at Starbucks, I'm feeling a lot better about that all and I'm asking God to help me learn patience to wait for His answer because I want what He's got planned for me, whatever that may be. Well, I can't really think of anything else right now and I kinda wanna go watch The Mummy Returns so, ta ta!
Tuesday, April 1, 2003
Well, today turned out to be a not-so-happy day. I was all excited this morning for the first day of archery and that was good, but everything else has turned out to be not so good. I think I've decided I don't want to take this meteorology class after all. We watched the first half of a video today basically summerizing what the course will be on and I don't find it as interesting as it sounded like it was going to be. So, I've found three other possible classes that I could get into, but I have to wait to decide until tomorrow because I gotta ask my mom what she thinks about which one I should take.
I got home and was all set to enjoy the rest of my day and after a bit the phone rang, and I answered it and it was Alonna. Andrew's sick she told me, want to work today? NO! But, being that I didn't have anything I was actually commited to doing, I felt I couldn't say no. So, I told her I wouldn't come in till 5 PM instead of 4 PM, but I'd do it, so I did. They played an April Fool's joke on me. First time in years that's happened. They made these brownies out of spunges that they soaked with chocolate syrup and then they put some chocolate frosting on them. At least I knew it had to be some sort of April Fool's thing so I was prepared for it. lol Good idea for a joke though. But yeah, work was boring and these two people came in two minutes before closing, took forever to decide what they wanted and then even asked for a side of salad. GRRR to the salads and the soups! It's a sub shop, not a sub, salad, soup, and ice cream shop. Blah. Then Autumn said she couldn't come over(she might get a job tomorrow though, so that's happy).
Then I got home and now my brain hurts and I'm so confused and I feel like I'm never going to amount to anything. Like, I know and understand that God's got a plan for me and that He'll show me the way, but at the same time I can't help being human and thinking I've got no major skill to get me anywhere and I have no money and I don't want to spend my life working worthless jobs that I hate. And like, I think that I want to go to Full Sail and get a degree in film, but it's over $30,000 and I've got like $300 to my name right now. And that doesn't take in what it'd cost me to to move to Florida and get an appartment and find some sort of transportaion and pay for food. I can't see how I'm supposed to be able to do that. I could apply for scholarships, but I don't think I have a chance at getting any. So many people have better grades than me, and have more "leadership" qualities and all the things that you need when applying for them, and I don't have that kind of stuff. I've spent my free time working and making websites, not being a member of the ASB and doing a whole buttload of community service! Sure, I help out a church, but that's just once a week and it's nothing big. I don't think there's anything about me that warrents me getting a scholarship over anyone else. And I could go to school down in Cali where my cousin Mike goes because tuition is really cheep and there's a lot of classes there I'd like to take and I could finish with my credits and get an AA Degree, but I'd have to become a resident again first and that'll take a year and I don't feel right about asking my grandparents or my aunt and uncle to take me in for all that time, but I couldn't afford a place of my own there either. I mean, we're talking Southern California, real estate prices are soaring there and appartment prices are high. Dangit, I've got all these ideas in my head, but I feel like there's no way any of them will work.
I get these really great creative ideas a lot too. I might as well just write this out here because it's not going to happen now and someone would probably have eventually stolen the idea from me anyway. You see, I wanted to go on tour with the Backstreet Boys and keep a blog on the internet about it and sometimes the Boys would post and stuff and it wouldn't be anything inappropriate, it'd just be stuff like, today the Boys had an interview at such-and-such and I got to tag along! It was so awesome! Etc. And then I could have a picture gallery of tour stuff, and there could be contests for each city and I would give a backstage tour to the winners and take them to meet the Boys. I even had the perfect domain for it picked out(which I won't say). But now, the Boys just released a statement that basically kills that idea. I don't know, maybe if Nick went on another tour or something, but how do I even get that idea to anyone that could make it happen? You can't contact those people just by looking in the phone book. I think it was a good idea though and I think all the other fans would have thought it rocked. I know Sam, Aceetha, Autumn, and Kriss thought it was a good idea. They were the few that I told about it. I've had that idea for years. I've even got sketches of possible layouts and everything. I'm so damn sad and pathetic or something.
It's late and I can't stop crying now so I think I'll just go brush my teeth and then try and cry myself to sleep. I'm sorry this is such a depressing entry, but I just had to put my thoughts somewhere.
