February 2002
Thursday, February 28, 2002
This has been a very wierd week. I mean, yesterday I didn't even turn my computer on at all. I've been busily trying to read books for my anthropology test tomorrow. I guess I'm mostly prepared for it now. I just need to do a little more skimming and then recap on my notes which I'll probably do tomorrow morning so that it'll all be fresh in my mind.
Tan, a good bud of mine, just opened up a brand new domain that really rocks. I think you all should go and take a look. :)
I'm planning a new layout for this site, but it's going to have to wait for a while. I really need to catch up on all of my schoolwork. I've been falling behind pretty badly in health and my writing class and that's a VERY bad thing to be doing right now. I really need to get my story written too. I have pieces of a whole bunch of different stories, but I'm really not sure what to do with them all and it's bugging the crap out of me. Plus, I've got a whole bunch of writing exercises to do that I've been putting off due to other work and just my general slacking off.
Ah, it's almost March(just a few more hours to go)... so happy. :) For starters it means that this miserable month is over and that this school quarter is so much closer to being over. It also means there's only one more month until I'm 17 and I can get into 'R' rated movies without my mom which is especially good considering my mom really doesn't like 'R' rated movies and she never seems to want to take me to the ones I want to see. lol Speaking of movies, I'm hoping to go and see the 'Count of Monte Cristo' (sp?) tomorrow night since that's when it starts at the local theatre. That will be a nice thing to kind of take my mind off all the stress in my life right now.
On the up side of things, I did finally get a job. I start this coming Tuesday at $8 an hour and I will probably get a raise after three months of working there too. :) For starters I'll only be working 4 hours a week, but considering I haven't been working at all for the past four months I'd say that's incredably great! lol It's actually one of the places my mom works at, although she works on a different day than I will be working on. I'll be updating their website and answering the phone and getting things ready to be shipped and stuff so hopefully that will be pretty cool. It's also nice that this company sells the same kind of techy stuff that I love which means that I might get discounts on stuff after I've been working there for a while! Yay! Ok, nuff's enough for tonight. I should finish up my last little bit of studying and have a little snack before bed too. TTFN!
Monday, February 25, 2002
Is it sad that I want this and this? Bummer I can't afford either of them 'cause I think it'd be so cool to have them. :) I don't think I'd ever spend that much for a ring though. Swords are a completely different story though. lol I've always wanted one and there's a place in California that sells swords and daggers and I've always wanted to save up my money and buy a dagger and then find some place that can teach me how to throw it. I mean, I'd never want to hurt anyone with it, I just have a strange obsession with this things.
Humm... Well, I've still got to read my books for anthropology. I was bad and watched North and South from 2-8pm on Saturday so I didn't really do much homework then. I did start reading last night though and the good news is that it's not written in a way that makes it really boring, but the bad news is that there's pics of these people all over the pages of the book and they're all half-naked so I have to be very careful and really focus on reading so I don't scare myself. lmao
Yesterday my mom finally admitted to me that she's worried about my lack of friends and a social life. I could tell she was for a while, but she actually told me that she was yesterday. It's wierd because I'm thinking of a birthday party this year and there's a huge list of people that I know that I could invite, but they're not really my "friends." I mean, I know them and they know me and we say 'Hi' and maybe chat some during class, but they don't really talk to me except for that. I don't want to worry my mom, but this is just the way it has to be for a while I think. I just don't fit in. Partly because I have no idea where I could be. I don't really know who I am as a person or what my goals and things are. Oh well.
School was fairly boring once again today. Same as it always is. It was stupid on the way home though. The freeway getting on and heading to my house starts at 60 and goes up to 70 once you pass the big city areas and someone decided to make me have road rage. How so? Well, no one goes 60 in the 60 zone. Most everyone goes 65, but some stupid people prefer to go faster and one such person was behind me. I was in the farthest lane, save for the car pool lane, and there wasn't really a way for me to move over into the lane next to me and I was going 68 as it was, but anyway, this person drove right up onto my butt, then backed off a bit, then did it all over again! GRRRR!!! I was going over the speed limit and it wasn't like I could move and there should be no reason that I'd have to, but NOOOO, this stupid person just wants to speed and kill themselves or somebody else! Rar. You know, I'm a really nice person and I don't typically get angry real easy, but for some reason I do when I'm driving and someone does something stupid to irritate me. I think I have some road rage issues. At least not so much that it's really a problem though. ;)
Burr... my room is cold. When my mom woke me up yesterday morning for church she told me we had snow. lol Supposedly it was supposed to be warm and sunny that day, but as I've noticed in the past, the weather stations aren't very accurate in their forcasts. ;) lol Sad for them I guess. I was happy with the snow though. :) It's pretty much gone now though because the sun came out during church just after they prayed for sun so that we could get some building stuff that we're working on done pretty soon. :)
I think I need to go finish making my sloppy joes so I can eat. I'm feeling a little hungry and it's going to take 20 minutes for the dang stuff to simmer and then set for a while. They would already be done, but as I was half way finished cooking the meat yesterday I realized that we didn't have any more tomato paste! Yay for my mommy though because she went and bought some for me on her way home today even though she was tired and just wanted to come home and rest. :D I have an awesome mommy! lol
Ok, well off I go to do some meandering around for a bit before I finish making my food. :) TTFN!
Friday, February 22, 2002
My world is falling into little bits...
However, on the upside of life, I did pretty well in archery on Tuesday and yesterday. Tuesday was my really good day. I beat my overall highest score by 30 pts. (it's for a set of 5 rounds of 6 shots). So yeah, I've been getting a lot more 10 pt. shots in lately, but I still haven't hit the lil x in the very center of the target and it's bumming me out. lol I mean, how am I supposed to be some sort of Robin Hood chick in a movie if I can't hit the lil x even once?!?!
The class schedule bites for spring quarter. Half the classes that I really wanted to take aren't even being offered this quarter and the ones that are overlap each other half the time! It stinks! So now I've got to decided which classes I'd really rather take over other ones. I for sure want to get into the photography class. I finally found out that my dad does have a camera that I can use for it so now I can take it and that makes me happy. :) I'm not going to take any English classes because none of the good ones are being offered right now, but I do think I'm going to get my final US History class out of the way, but I'm not sure what else I'm going to put into my schedule.
I've got massive amounts of reading to do over the weekend. I HATE reading these things. I mean, assign me to choose a book of my choice and read it, yeah, I've got no problem with that. But make me read crappy things that I don't want to read and it becomes a never-ending chore. I have to read two stories written by my fellow classmates and then cretique them for my fiction class. Then I've got to read boring books on old cultures for my anthropology test on Friday, the first. Ugh... when will it ever end?!
I've got too much to do and not enough time to do it. I've gotta code up websites for people, I've gotta work on my own websites that are up and the ones that should be up, but have been put off for so long, plus homework, a little food here and there, and whatever else gets thrown at me. The good news though is that I might be getting a job pretty soon so that I can actually have money again considering that I've spent pretty much everything that I had left in my checking account and I've had to start asking my parents for gas money so that I can get to and from school each day. Well, off I go to do all sorts of things. TTFN!
Monday, February 18, 2002
I finally started working on my bits for the research paper my friend and I have due on Friday. I've got one more section to do, but I just didn't feel like doing it today. I was not in the mood at all.
Apparently I'm really behind the times or something because my parents were watching a bit of the winter olympics and I kept watching after then went to sleep and they have ice dancing! I didn't know that there was such a thing as ice dancing. lmao Apparently it's been around for quite a while though. I'm just not special enough to know these kinds of things. lol
I'm glad there's no school today. Bummer that most of my friends get the whole week off though and I don't. At least I do get the last week of March off though since it's in between quarters and all. :) Oh YES!!! They finally posted the spring quarter schedual!!!! Woo hoo!! Ok, I forgot what else I was going to post and it doesn't matter now because I'm going to go and pick out my classes! Yeehaw!
Friday, February 15, 2002
YAY for me!!!! Spiffin' new layout over at my jump page, shininstar.net. :D Go check it out and tell me what you think!
Well, yesterday wasn't too horribly bad and my mom did give me a lil present. Yumm... it was a big Reeses chocolate and peanut butter heart and it was very tasty. ;) I did really suck during archery though. I really am getting worse at it. lmao
Hummm... I was also bad yesterday. I couldn't help it! I mean, the things are free and it was just calling out for me to get one so I had to! lmao It's not up yet and it's going to be unknown until it is to everyone but the buddy I was chattin' with when I bought it. ;) Anyway, I'm going to start a layout for it in a bit I think. The only problem is I'm not exactly sure of what it will be. I mean, I had a thought when I bought it, but now I'm not sure if that's what I want to use it for or if I can think of something better to do with it.
I went to a few places to get applications today and there's some good hope for a bead store that's really awesome. :) I think that would be a good place for me. It wouldn't get huge rushes, the beads are all freakin' cool, and it's a nice crafty place and I'm a nice crafty girl. :) The guy said he was going to talk to his partner about it and get back to me so maybe I'll get a call later today or tomorrow or sunday... hopefully soon. :) I also got apps. for Barnes and Noble and Wherehouse Music so I'll probably fill those out and take them back in a few days unless I hear from the bead place and they hire me, then I obviously wouldn't need to. ;p
I made sloppy joe's today! :D Mumm... I love those things. They're so good. Reminds me of my lovely little moment a few years ago. lmao I had two of my friends over and I had had a hankerin' for some sloppy joe's so my mom made some for us. When they were ready I told my friends they could keep watching the movie and I would bring their's out to them. Anyway, I bring them out and I go, "Be careful, they're sloppy!" In this dorky tone and then I start laughing, slap myself on the leg and then they both started laughing. Ahh... my lovely dorkiness... hehe
Ok, off I go to make more websites because I'm freakin' addicted. Tomorrow I've gotta work on my health paper though. My friend and I have to find more research for it so that's probably what we're going to spend most of the time on tomorrow. Welp, ttfn!
Wednesday, February 13, 2002
Well, I just got an e-mail from the theatre in town and it turns out they don't need anyone after all. So now there's nothing. I don't want to work at Claire's. It's too much of a hassle and a waste of money that I don't have to go and buy new clothes and shoes just so I can work there when I'm not sure I'd even like it there seeing as how I think their rules about the dress code are just plain stupid. Ani just sent me an e-mail saying it's not too hard to get that stuff, but it is for me. In addition to that, I don't want to spend more money on clothes that I will hate wearing when I can spend less money on clothes that I like. I don't mind work uniforms, but some of these places around here take it a little too seriously. Like at Ani's work... she can only wear clothes from the store she works at or clothes that look just like that style as long as you can't see the brand-name tag on it. I don't at all mind wearing a shirt that is provided by me from the company or even having to wear regular jeans all the time instead of my funky-style ones, I just don't think it's right to require people to wear such a strict dress code and not provide any of it for them. Maybe I'm completely alone in this all, but it is simply how I am.
On a nicer note, I forgot to mention that I watched Gladiator last night(and again just a little while ago. That is a freakin' good movie!!!! It rocks! I'm going to have to buy it someday when I have a job and a steady paycheck once more. lol
I didn't go to any of my classes today. I was running a little late and I ran out and started my car, but then I realized that I hadn't grabbed any food and decided I would rather be a bit more late and not starve to death, so I turned off my car and went back inside and grabbed some stuff. So, I go back outside and my car won't start. It really didn't even make much of an attempt and I tried quite a few times. So, rather than taking my parent's mini van, I just said "Screw it" and decided I'd stay home for the day playing on then net and working some on my research paper. Well, off I go to check e-mail and work on sites n' such. TTFN!
Tuesday, February 12, 2002
Wow, I just succeeded in pissing myself off! How you may ask? Well, I'm working on a new banner exchange and I decided that instead of useing Orbit Cycle again(because well, they put their ads on there and there's a limited number of banner sizes to choose from) I'd install a script I'd found that seemed pretty darn good. Well, I've spent the last hour and a half trying to figure out why in the heck when I clicked on the banner off my computer it would go to my default URL and never to the URL of the picture. So, I re-uploaded every file I think 3 or 4 times and then finally I decided to be smart and try sticking the page online to see if it would work then. Guess what! It worked then! The entire time it was fine, I was just too stupid to realize it! Gar! Sometimes I really have to wonder about myself and the ablitily of my mind to function properly. Arg. At least I did figure it out though so I don't have to freak out and complain that I couldn't get the site up by the date I want 'cause the script wasn't working. Oh well... we all have our really dumb moments right? Mine must just be extra dumb for some reason.
Well, my 8 to 10 page research paper that I'm working on with a friend(he wanted us to do it in partners... wierd) is due on the 22 and well, we haven't exactly made much progress on it. I am not a happy camper. I need to relax... there is still time, I should not be stressed yet.
Ok, I meant to go to bed before this, but I had my lovely little banner script experiance and that kept me up a while longer than I would have liked. Anyway, g'night.
Sunday, February 10, 2002
Yay! Muh's back!!! Welcome back Muh!
Ok, so my room is all clean and happy now and it's quite pleasant to be able to open up my door all the way and not have to walk all over clothes anymore. :) I had a friend over for a while on Friday night and she's a huge NSYNC fan and she really wants backstage passes to thier up and coming concert so I was a nice friend and I shared the little amount of knowledge I have about how to go about getting one with her and that was fun. I might go to the concert with her. Someone told me a while ago that NSYNC's better in concert than my Backstreet Boys and I just find that very hard to believe so I think I may just go and see for myself.
I wrote my 6th critique out of the 10 I have to do for my fiction class tonight and it's the very first one that I'm actually proud of!! I actually like how it turned out and everything! Now, let's just hope my teacher does too. hehe
I've got a health test tomorrow morning. I read the two chapters that it's on today and hopefully with a little review tomorrow morning I'll do alright. I did ok on the first test. I think I got a low B or something. I thought I was going to get a C because there were a lot of questions that I didn't know the answer to. Hopefully this time I'll be more prepared.
Well, time to wrap up all my net junk. I'm actually going to make a bonified attempt to go to bed at a reasonalbe time tonight. Wish me luck! ;) TTFN!
Friday, February 8, 2002
So guess what! Claire's FINALLY got back to me about working there and they acutally want to hire me! I mean, who wouldn't want to hire me? lmao Anyway, that was a nice thing to hear until she went on to explain the dress code. No jeans? That's jacked up! Ok, it's a teenager store, teens wear jeans most of the time... I see no reason for this. Well, I could have lived with that, but then she said that you're not allowed to wear tennis(sp?) shoes!!! What the heck gives with that?! I can't do that either. So I told her you know, look, I've got a foot problem and the only shoes that I can wear are tennies so she told me that she'd have to call the district manager and get back to me. Ok. So she just called me back and said that I would have to get a note from my doctor to prove it and 1) if you just look at my feet when I'm bare foot and standing you can tell there's somthing that's just not right, and 2) my current insurance only covers emergencies so a visit to my doctor is not going to happen and I haven't been there for so long that I doupt they'd be able to give me a note like that unless the examined my feet first. So yeah, I'm pretty sure at this point in time that I'm going to call back on Monday or something and tell them that I'm no longer interested. I mean, I couldn't even wear a regular t-shirt, I'd have to wear a blouse! The only pants I own are jeans and sweats(those aren't allowed either) and the only shirts I have are regular t-shirts except that I think I've got one blouse hidden somewhere in my closet. Man, I wish they would have let me know about this a lot sooner. I've been trying to get a job there for what, four months and they just now decided to tell me about their dress code. Arg. There's still hope for the movie theatre though so that's good. :) I'd much rather work there anyway and I think I could wear basically everything that I currently own too. The only thing is that I might not get a lot of hours, but if I like it and I get money, I don't particularly care about that right now. Plus, like my mom suggested, I could always get a second part-time job for days I wouldn't work at the theatre or in the afternoon before I'd have to get to the theatre. (Explanation: our theatre is a one room theatre that only plays one movie for a week or two depending on popularity and it's only shown once a night with the exception of weekends, school breaks, and the summer.)
Alright, now that I've gotten my rant out of my system I think I'm going to go back to cleaning my room. I've been working on it for a few hours so far and some of the stuff I found I didn't even know I had and of course I found a few things that brought back bad memories and promptly ripped them to heck. :D lol Ta ta!
Monday, February 4, 2002
Once again, I'm posting when I should be asleep. I meant to post earlier, but I'm a really bad procrastinator and then after I put it off for a wihle I forgot until just a bit ago. Shame on me.
Let's see... I don't think I posted that this site's back up so I'm doing it now. :) Also, I got back my cultural anthropology test today and I somehow managed an A- on the thing!! I really don't know how I did it. God just blessed me with some seriously good reasoning and logic skills so that I could figure out some of the questions that were out of the book that I didn't read or something! lol Whatever it is, I'm glad for it. :)
I finally started writing my fiction story the other day for my class. :) I'm liking my idea for it a lot, I've just got to figure out where I'm going with it right now. It's starting off as a nice sci-fi piece so we'll just see what happens with it. I'm so proud of the name I came up with for my main character though! lol I'm not going to say what it is right now though... you're just going to have to read it when I get it going! Anyway, I should get myself into bed and off to sleep. G'night.
Sunday, February 3, 2002
I just got back from the movies. I went and saw "A Walk to Remember." That is the most beautiful movie. Guy, I want a love like that. That movie was a great cry(multiple times too). Mandy Moore and Shane West were really good. I must also give mad props to Shane because in his cry scene he did a very convincing job. I hate it when you go to movies and there's this really deep cry scene and the actors can't cry right. It's just obviously fake. But Shane, he did a great job. Dang, that was such a good movie. I think I'm going to have to go and see it again when it comes to town. lol Only downfall of that is that I'll probably know more people there and they're all gonna see me walk out with a tear stained face by the time the movie's over. lol But seriously, if you haven't seen it, go see it! Guys should go and see it too! I don't care if you think it's just some stupid chich flick, go see it dangit!
Ugh, I've got to read a story and cretique it tonight. I hate doing this. It's incredably annoying and almost every story that I've read so far just hasn't been the type of style of fiction that I like and it's not much fun to be forced to read it when you dislike it. Oh well. Egh... I just realized that I'm also far behind on some of the writing exercises for that class too. This bites. Well, guess I ought to go do that stuff. TTFN.
Saturday, February 2, 2002
My life is boring. And to top it all off, whenever I think something is finally going to go right it gets crapped up. Whatever.
Anth. test was today. I don't think I completely bombed it, but I didn't do too hott on it either. It probably would have been easier and a lot better if I'd have actually read the second of the two books I was supposed to read. I skimmed over it, but apparently not the right parts because that's not the stuff that was on the test. Basically I just BSed my way through most of the questions that involved the second book except for one that I just left unfinished because I had no clue and I was really confused. I think that question may have caused me to miss another one because I erased what I'd had and changed it, but now I'm thinking that my first instinct was probably the best way to go. I could flip through the book and check, but I really don't care. It's too late now so I'll just find out when I get my score back. As long as I pulled a C I'll be completely happy. All I want is to have passed it. I really don't care about the specific grade.
Ani's trying to convince me to go to the DC Talk concert on the 21st of this month, but I don't have any money and I'm not really sure that I want to go. I mean, I like some of their old songs that I've heard, but I don't really know their music at all and it just seems that it would be wierd to be there and not know any of the songs.
Speaking of concerts... I'm ticked! Aaron Carter's got all these tours that have been going on for the last few years, but he doesn't come to the Northwest! He doesn't even go to Oregon or Idaho or anything. I'm getting mad. I want to go see Aaron perform again!
Have you ever been so overwhelmed by feelings and thoughts and you want to get them out, but there's no one you can tell? I feel like that. I don't have anyone to tell these things that are in my mind and it's sad. I think I'm just seriously screwed up right now, but whatever. G'night.
