March 2001
Wednesday, March 28, 2001
Hey! Just a quick lil note to say that I got blueBERRYfrost.com up earlier this afternoon. Don't ask why it took me so long to get this posted...homework...telephone...it was stuff like that. Anyways, here it is. I'll write more soon. TTFN!
Tuesday, March 27, 2001
Yope!! Sup G??? *is in her own freaky gangster mode which really isn't gangsterish, but you know...she has to try* Not too much goin' down round here. Just chillin'. Ok, nuf with that. I'm an ideot...I know...you don't need to point it out to me again. LoL j/k Anyways, haven't posted for a while. I don't have any excuse either...I just kinda didn't. Yup. I'm ignoring you all 'cause you agitate me. Yup, yup, yup. Ok, enough of me pretending to dislike you all...I could never do that. :)
Well, on Sunday I went to the T-Birds hockey game only to find that my fave player wasn't on the team anymore!!! Sadness!!!! WAHHHHHH!!! Well, I have new stud hockey players now. See, there's Riddle, Spiller, and of course, Black. They kickbutt and got into a bunch of fights with the other team. Hey! That's an important quality in a hockey player! I could do it! YEAH! Remember Autumn??? LoL I really didn't mean for you to fly across the hall and hit the wall like that...I didn't think you were gonna go that far! LoL It was funny though. ;) Well, sadly the T-Birds lost, but at least we all had a blast!
Tomorrow I get to go on a field trip with a bunch of girls from my school. We're going to a thing called "Expanding Your Horizons." It's an all girls conference and you get to check out all these really cool jobs that like a lot of women aren't in right now in hopes it will spark our interests in them and we'll end up being the next woman in one of them. We don't get to find out what classes we get to go to until we get there tomorrow, but I hope that I get Astronomy and Aerodynamics(sp?). Those would be way rad to check out! LoL Well, I've gotta jet! Time for homework n' stuff like that. ;) TTFN!
Wednesday, March 21, 2001
Well, I'm feeling slightly depressed once again. It's been happening the last few days. It doesn't help either that my friends keep bringing the whole guy subject up every second. I just wanna forget about it. It's probably one of those rejection phases or something like that. I'm not really depressed or anything because, from the beginning, I always thought that there was no way he would like me or be interested in me or whatever. And, maybe because of that I doomed myself to my spoken fate. Or maybe having the answer be "no" is just God's way of telling me it wasn't meant to be. I don't know. I just know it'd be a little easier if everyone would just let me move on. He probably got the note, and he didn't reply...that means he's not interested. Can you all understand that? I want you to know that I'm not yelling at you all. As a matter of fact I'm writing this with a very calm and tranquil tone in mind. Ah, well...you'll get it when you get it.
My mom let me rent movies yesterday. I got "Battlefield Earth" and "X-Men." I watched "B.E." last night. It was pretty cool. I mostly just really liked the concept behind it all and the whole meaning of what was going on and how we weren't considered intellegent beings by the creatures that were ruling over us. It was interesting and it brought me into it all. I just finished watching "X-Men" an hour or two ago. Tammy kept telling me how cool it was and that I'd love it and should go out and rent it...so I did. And she was right. I loved it. LoL It's a whole lot different than I remember the cartoons to be when I used to watch Saturday morning cartoons with my cousins. It was just one of those great sci-fi movies that makes you just jump in and know exactly what everything is like...OH CRAP!!!!! I just remembered I was doing laundry and I never put it in the dryer and now my parents are asleep!!! Shmuck! Be right back...Ok...maybe they didn't notice that I turned it on...I can't hear it much from in my room...egh...I'd better go...TTFN!
Sunday, March 18, 2001
Not much to say, but I felt obligated to post an entry. Don't ask me why I just freakin' do. Well, had another dream last night. I haven't had so many dreams like this for a long time. I like it. I love my dreams...well, unless they're the ones that freak the crap outta me...those ones I don't like as much. Anyhoo, the dream I can remember from last night was like exactly the opposite of the first dream I had that was bad. I donno...it's all wierd. Maybe I'll dream again tonight and all will be well. Hey, I should like create an online dream journal or something! LoL That'd be kinda cool... Look at that! I'm so incredably stupid! URG! I've got tons of sites that need to be put up still and here I am brainstorming for new ones! Will I ever learn?!
Well, I thought I was going to get to play broom hockey last night and have a blast fallin' on my butt a ton and not be able to sit down at all today, but no! They had to go and ruin my beautiful dream! WHY?! *whines and cries* All I wanted to do was make my entire butt one giant bruse, but no! They denied me my one last wish before the next day! *sniffles* I just don't know if I can take it anymore! It was terrible! They drove us around doing nothing and made me bored out of my mind. Urgness...urg. Just because they said we didn't have enough people...there were like 10 of us! That's enough for a good game! If not we could have at least gone and rented some skates and gone ice skating instead, but no...I was denied. Grr. Time for me to go to bed and sleep off the angerness. Yes, I just said angerness. I'm aware it's not a word to you, but I just said it so it must be a word now, or did I just make up some strange new deranged noise that will become the center of the next musical fad??? I guess we'll find out in time. Nights.
Saturday, March 17, 2001
Zero reply = not interested. Well, time to go off to broom hockey and beat the crap outta everyone to release my anger...well, not really. I won't beat the crap outta everyone. I'm not that kinda person, plus I couldn't even if I wanted to. And, I'm not actually angry at all...I just thought that first bit sounded better...ya know?
Friday, March 16, 2001
Yay! I'm so proud of you Des! You are postin' up a storm! LoL Just don't get like the others and get tired of it right off the bat. Andrea never posts anymore and Randi hasn't for a while...Tammy only posts sometimes...Aki's gettin' better since her computer came back from the computer hospital though. :)
Well, no response as of yet. I had this dream last night...one of the ones that I mentioned before and well, I just hope that that's not what it turns out to be like. All I ask is that if it's a no, not to have it be as painful as my dream...I can still feel the hurt from it even though it didn't actually happen. You all know what I'm talking about. Those dreams where you almost can't tell and think that it did happen until you finally remember you actually did something else and not that. Well, this was one of those kinds of dreams. I think I'm gonna go now and be sad. Can you feel the sadness? I sure can. Buh-bye.
I have recently concluded that all freaks are actually normal(well, not all) and the majority of popular people are actually the freaks. They seriously freak me out and they think that what they're doing is cool, while, in reality, we all know it's just wierd and annoying. Now, this is not the case for all people classified in these catigories. I have just noticed that many of them are this way. Shouldn't things be the other way around then? I think it should be more like the so-called freaks on top, then the middle people in the middle(hence why they are the "middle" people) and the popular kids at the bottom. This is the happy utopia of my world. I think I'm going to go and colinate a planet in the NGC 4603 galaxy and it will be by only "invite." HA! *is having a rather odd day so don't mind or pay much attention to anything that she has said or may end up saying...at least in this paragraphy anyhoo*
I think I've almost given up hope. I haven't yet completely, but in light of the fact that nothing had happened at all yet I'm beginning to loose hope. Maybe I'll get it back or something and maybe not. I'm not real sure about a lot of things right now. I had three really odd dreams last night that I've remembered throughout the course of the day. They were a combination of odd, just plain wierd, unexplainable and somewhat realistic in a sad and depressing way. Yup.
Well, yesterday at work was fun...LoL The power went out once again. For about a half an hour to 40 minutes. Gotta jet. Just got a note to go somewhere here at school. TTFN!
Thursday, March 15, 2001
Well, I tried to post earlier at school today, but the stupid computers there are on a firewall and it wouldn't let me for some dang freakin' reason even though it usually does...whatever. Anyways, I had a friend stick a note I wrote into HIS locker this morning. No response yet though. There's a slight possiblity that he hasn't gotten it yet because we had a late arrival so we only had certain classes and he may not have gone back to his locker at all. I donno. I just know I'm more nervous than heck about what he'll say!
Let's see...I think the only other thing is that I made up a pitas page for Des and I added her to my possay. She hasn't posted anything yet on it though considering I haven't sent her her username and password yet! LoL Well, gotta jet. TTFN!
Talk about having butterflies in one's stomach. I just had a friend of mine put a note in his locker this morning about 30 minutes ago. I'm kinda scared. Is this all supposed to be so hard?? Or is it just that I've never done this before so it's exceptionally harder than it might be for others who've had more experiance with situations such as these. I just hope that he'll be nice about it either way. Weither he decides he wants to know me or not. Wish me luck.
Wednesday, March 14, 2001
You know what??? This just totally sucks! Seriously. I just went through the members list at my clique, as long as i love them, which just got hosted, and my members list went from 99 to 30 frakin' 7!!!!! That's right! 37...that's all that's left. All the other pages were either dead or didn't have the code up! Urg! How mean! *sniffles* Why...why?????
Well, the bad news is I still haven't freakin' talked to HIM yet. The good news is that I get to sleep in tomorrow morning 'cause we've got a late arrival at school! LoL Yayness! Well, I don't think there's really anything else to say right now, so...buh-bye!
Well, I just finished up fixing all the images on this page and on my friend's main pages. Too bad we cen't edit the archives either...that's a major bummer. :( Oh well. Can't really talk right now at all though. I have to attempt to figure out a new project to work on since my old one kinda failed a bit. Not to mention the fact that I can't get to the file that's got all the requirements on it so I don't know what to do! AH! LoL I still didn't talk to him yet for those of you who may be wondering. He was hangin' out with his possay all morning and I'm TOTALLY afraid to approach him when he's with his group and the thing is that I hardly ever see him when he's by himself. Sadness. Wah! LoL
Oh guess what! The Boys are comin' back to town! YES YES YES! I just found out last night that BSB is set to come up to Seattle in early August! YAY! That's like the perfect time too 'cause I'll be here and it'll be warm and I won't freeze to death while waiting outside this time! Hehehe! Well, guess I'd had better go for now 'cause we have a sub and he's probably wondering why I'm not working. It freaks me out 'cause he keeps hovering over our computers...egh! *skin crawls* TTFN!
Tuesday, March 13, 2001
*sigh* What to do what to do? Egh...*whines* I don't know!!! URG! Well, at least other people have been having a good day. Mine's not bad, it's just that it's boring and very not cool. Why must life be so darn confusing and difficult at times? Why can't things be more like those happy movies that always end perfectly? You know? Gosh! This class is becoming SOOOO boring! Ugh...and now we're getting a new project assignment which my teacher calles fun, however I do not agree. We get a week to do it and let me just tell you...it's much more than a week-long project! I guess that it's a good thing I have this class for two periods out of the day! LoL I knew I did that for a reason... *laughs* Well, I'm mass bored and this really isn't helping so I'm going to go find something else that just may. ;) TTFN!
Monday, March 12, 2001
Another day, another time to go to sleep! LoL No, not really. At least not quite yet anyways. Well, my server for blueberryfrost.com and raspberry-rain.net is finally back up. Oh yeah, did I mention that I finally bought space for r-r.net? Yup, now I don't have to deal with the freakin' free servers and everyone thinking that my domain is one of those crappy free ones and I've just by-passed the ad frame! No people! I bought all of my domains! It just ticks me off that there are these fake-crap domains out there! Half of them don't deserve to have domains because of what they're doing! I mean, it's not so incredably bad as long as they leave the ad-frame on. I mean, sure it looks butt ugly, but at least they're being honest and not trying to take advantage of these companies that are offering domains for free. Oh well, whatever. Anyways, now that I've got more space I can finally fix all the images on my and all the other pitas pages. Grrr to geocities for being mean.
Well, I thought I'd finally figured out how to install a cgi script today, but sure enough...it wouldn't work. All I was trying to do was get myself a permenant guestbook for r-r.net so that I don't have to deal with the free ones acting up anymore and it just wouldn't work! I did everything just like it said! I even deleated the files and tried again, but it still gave me a 500 internal server error! I don't understand! WAHHHHH!!!! Well, I e-mailed the guy who made the script to see if he can offer me any advice that may solve the problem so hopefully all will work out just fine. :)
Well, today was pretty much the usual day at school once again. Oh, well, except for the fact that I'm mass nervous about seeing the guy that I like and if I should try and talk to him or something, but you know... Anyways, I developed my recent roll of film today in photography class. I really like how some of the pics came out. I love being able to develop and print my own photos...it's just really cool to know that you did it all(except that I didn't make the film nor the camera)! We had to take pictures of buildings for our project. I think they came out pretty cool. Plus I had some pictures on there from when I got stuck in the lake and I'm glad that they came out well for all the trouble I went through to get them. :)
Well, I guess it's time for nighty night 'cause I'm starting to feel sleepy and I just wanna crawl into bed and sleep for hours and hours. It's a good thing that I got all my homework done at school during my last class! LoL Well, gotta jet. Night, night.
Saturday, March 10, 2001
Well, stupid me, I never posted about what happened yesterday yesterday! LoL Now, tell me that doesn't sound wierd! LoL Anyways, I was stupid and didn't talk to that guy even though I had the perfect opportunity. I just freakin' couldn't do it! *sniffle, waah* Oh well, maybe Monday or something or whatever...LoL
Well, after school Randilinn came over so we could ride our bikes up to the lake(which used to be a town way back when before it flooded and became a lake) and take pictures of some of the buildings for our school photography project. Anyways, we decided to stop and check out the lake before going further up the hill to the buildings since the lake looks so cool right now. See, the lake has shrunk so you can see TONS of HUMUNGUS stumps and even some of the old foundations of the town. Well, Randi and I started walking out 'cause I wanted to get to the edge of where the lake is now. Helpfull tip...never EVER try to get to the edge of a receeding lake! You wanna know why??? 'Cause you'll get stuck! Trust me...I should know because I did! It was seriously freaky! But, of course, Randilinn just stood where she was laughing and took a picture of me in my torture. LoL She stoped when she thought she was starting to sink more and I was like, "Oh Randilinn! Come on! We're so close! It's not that squishy yet!" Of course, after I said that my entire leg(well, up to my knee anyways) went into the next glob of mud I steped on! Figures! Shesh! LoL Anyways, I was seriously stuck and I thought I was going to be there for a while, but luckily the Lord got me out before it was too late. Of course, before that happened I did manage to rip my foot out of my stuck shoe and then stick my entire leg into the wet mud...not a happy feeling at the time. I thought something was gonna get me in there! LoL Well, I did get out and we got back up to firm ground safely and all. Only thing I have to say is that those pics I took way out there had better come out for all the trouble I went to get them! LoL Well, not really, but that'd be nice ya know? Well, 'tis late and my show's coming on in 45 minutes so I gotta finish up with all my other internet business. :) TTFN!
Friday, March 9, 2001
Well, Autumn's gone and blown my cover. Ok, so I didn't really have any cover to begin with, but you know...whatever. Yeah, that's what I was talking about yesterday. I asked the guy I have a crush on to a dance. He said he'd think about. Totally understandable considering the fact that he told me he didn't know who I was! LoL I'm a dork, don't we all know it? Hehehe. j/k Anyways, I think the bell's gonna ring for lunch at any second so I'm gonna jet outta here. TTFN!
Thursday, March 8, 2001
Today is an odd-feeling day. I think that I've decided to do something...I guess we'll see what happens. I can't tell you just yet...maybe later tonight or tomorrow...something like that...I don't know...like I said...it's odd-feeling. It's rather wierd because even though it feels odd, it kinda feels right too. *deep breath* I guess I'm just going to have to see how it all turns out later. Wish me luck!
Tuesday, March 6, 2001
Well, it's 6th period and it's rather BORING! LoL I love this class, it's just...kinda boring and then there are all the annoying people who are mean to me. URG TO THEM!
Last period we got the course booklets for next year and got to look through the classes that are offered and everything. There are a few new classes, but only one that I'd be remotely interested in. Oh well. On a side note, an ideot in my class decided to show us his new trick that he could do...it was one of those string through the nose and out the mouth deals...LoL I'd never actually seen that in real life and it was kinda freaky. Hekka funny though! LoL
Sadly, there was another school shooting yesterday, if you didn't already know. These things are ticking me off. People need to be nicer to each other! URG!
Monday, March 5, 2001
Ummm...I felt bad for not posting anything yet this month so here I am...posting. :) Aren't I just the nicest girl you've ever known?! LoL Ok, so maybe not, but I can hope right? Well, the only real news is that I had a really wierd dream last night involving the guy that I've got a crush on. It was umm...interesting. Let's just say it involved being kidnapped and taken into a warehouse where it filled with water and I swam to the top and broke open the door, thus saving everyone else who was in there. Yeah, it's not like it was just me and my crush...there were other peeps there. I saved the day though! I'm very proud of myself for that. ;D
I guess that's it, except that I got to play with one of those writing tablets for computers 'cause our school has a whole bunch...anyways, they're really cool and lots of fun. I'm going to have to find out how much they cost and get myself one! YEAH! LoL Well, gotta jet...TTFN!
